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PO# 643996
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United States
Writing is my escapism. The thoughts I'm too afraid to speak out loud, I'll do here.
July 7, 2019
 

It's so hard to write today.

When the task is to write for my future that's one thing. But to write the thoughts I have buried deep within myself about the one thing I tell myself I can't think about, it becomes a near impossible task.

I need this so, I must push on even if these thoughts spread like a disease and I become lost.

Wish me luck.

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INTO THE GALAXY
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June 30, 2019
 

I am a naive lovestruck dreamer.

Reaching for the truth only to get burned by the light.  

The truth that love is non-existent in my world. Some unobtainable goal that could never be achevied.

My dreams haunt me. Teasingly, dangling what "could" be in front of me.

Then I wake up, head pounding like I drank too much and my fingers asleep like they've been holding on to something all night.

I can't escape the pain. And he will never know.

INTO THE UNIVERSE
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June 30, 2019
 

Has someone ever told you, you're beautiful in the morning? Has anyone ever told you that something tastes of you? Or that they find comfort in the scent of you?

I have.

But what does that mean for me?

If I am so beautiful, so sweet, and so comforting then why do I feel so broken?

EARTH
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June 28, 2019
 

Rest.
I really wish that was a thing I could do.

My mind is cloudy, my eyes dry, my head sore. And even when I close my eyes I wake to jolts of heat flashes in my sleep.

Rest,
Doesn't seem like something I can do anymore.

INTO THE SHADE
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June 27, 2019
 

I want to forget.
Forget whaqt I feel. Forget what I know.

I want freedom from the prison of my thoughts. I suffer in the pain of being unable to touch and be touched.

Maybe someone, somewhere, can touch my heart and trim the vines that snare it.

MOVEMENT
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