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Valeria Ludeña

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Ecuador
Ecuador
22 years old. Writing is my way to escape reality.
August 16, 2017
Guayaquil, Ecuador

It took me 5 years to figure out that sometimes you can love someone so so much but they won't love you back, no matter what you do.

This is my last letter to you; first of all I want to thank you, for showing me that I'm not made of steel, that I have a heart and it's full of love, secondly for helping me figure out how to express my emotions and feelings. You always tell me how I need to express myself and how I never talk about my problems and frustrations and you made it so easy for me to do it.
We did so much in these 5 years that honestly have been the greatest adventure I've ever had, if I had the chance I'd do it all over again despite the ending.

If 5 years ago someone would have...

EL TIEMPO LO CURA TODO
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Today, I feel like writing.

I've realized it's one passion I've never given enough credit to. I love it though, it makes me feel renewed and it emotionally drains me.

Sometimes, we dedicate so much time to things that really do not makes us happy but that we have to do because we're supposed to, because of society, because of what everyone around us is doing.

My friends, here's a piece of advice I've learnt: do more of what makes you feel happy, things that makes you feel alive, like your time here means something! Never let yourself get caught up by routine because at the end of the day, the only things that will matter will be the things you do for yourself.

So, start living b...

FREEDOM
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April 1, 2017
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I don't usually talk about or share this kind of feelings but now I really feel drowned about them and I think the only way I'll get them out is if I write about them.

I feel really sad, I don't know why, I just do. It's been a few weeks in which I seem to care about no one including myself, I don't see the meaning in anything, I just don't appreciate things and I know it's bad but I can't help it, I feel so demotivated it is a pain in the ass just to get off my bed, I look up to nothing and I'm desperate to change that.

I really feel I'm wasting my days but I just can't seem to get over this..

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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January 4, 2017
Samborondón, Ecuador

One day you're sitting by yourself, thinking about that special person and you get to the point where everything started, you begin to remember what got you in the place you are know, every detail, every moment, every touch and of course, every feeling.

You start recalling the first time you saw her with lover eyes, the first time you told her about your fears and insecurities, the first time you told her about your passions... the first time you told her you loved her.

But then, you start remembering why you're not together anymore, why you distanced yourself from her, why it is an impossible love and you get teary eyes because you're so in love with her it hurts, you feel this emptiness ...

STRAIGHT LINES
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November 10, 2016
Samborondón, Ecuador

The day you left I had this horrible sensation, I've never felt like that, I must say it is the most awful feeling I've ever experienced.

For starters, I had never cried when someone left, ever. But with you I felt this hole in my chest, this emptiness, I started crying like crazy, I've never felt so impotent in my life.
You were leaving and I've never told you how I feel about you, never kissed you, never tried anything more than friendship even though I know till this day that you feel something for me too!!

I'm such a coward, and I'll never forgive myself for that. I dream about you almost every night.

I'm in love with you and I think I'll always be.

NOS SE PUEDE TENER TODO
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November 7, 2016
Samborondón, Ecuador

Don't you ever feel like you have no idea what are you doing with your life?

Like, you're just spinning endlessly in this black hole and disappointing everyone around you.. it's gotta be one of the worst feelings ever, my life has been kinda like that for the last couple of days. I lack of motivation on a daily basis.

I'm so fucking lost.

ONE AT A TIME
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November 1, 2016
Samborondón, Ecuador

Si me arrepiento de algo en esta vida es de todas las veces que te pude decir lo mucho que significas para mí pero no lo hice.

Te fuiste y no hay un solo puto día en el que no piense en ti, en el que no quiera escribirte para saber como va tu vida, si me extrañas como yo a ti.. si por lo menos me piensas.

Al parecer solo tú y yo seremos las únicas personas que siempre sabremos el sentimiento que nos tenemos, ya que ninguna es lo suficientemente valiente para decirlo, demostrándolo cada quien a su manera, tú sigues pendiente de mi, aún estando con otra persona mientras que yo siempre estaré esperándote..

LOVE WINS
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September 24, 2016
Samborondón, Ecuador

Who would say that you'd be unforgettable to me, that every time I see a picture of you I'd still feel these butterflies in my stomach and every time you text me I'd feel alive again.

Am I so lucky or incredible unlucky to feel this way with you gone?

You got me, in every way..

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January 27, 2015
Guayaquil, Ecuador

I mostly like to write when I'm feeling happy, 'cause I like to transmit my happiness and good feelings to others.

But I've realized it's ok to feel sad and angry too, we're humans you know. We are supposed to have and experience all kind of feelings, that's what makes life so beautiful and intriguing.

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January 6, 2015
Samborondón, Ecuador

I'm a hopeless romantic without a doubt and for that I believe truly in love and all the things that comes along with it.

I believe that when you are in love with someone it's a magical thing and as you already know, magic is not something you get easily and by that I am inclined to say that you have to work hard to preserve it, it's though like everything that is worth it but I must say nothing compares to it.

Love is a fight in which you have a partner and you both have to be prepared for everything; you and your partner as a team. If one of you two gets weak the other has to bring it up, but eventually the weak one has to get stronger to keep fighting, the problem is that people get used...

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November 25, 2014
 

I've been a little off the internet lately, kinda trying to put my life together and stuff.

A lot has happened in these past few months, I've lost people, I've figured out a lot of things, I've fallen in love, and the most important thing; I've discovered the meaning of that famous quote: "You don't know what you have until you lose it". But the truth of the matter is that I know what I had but I just didn't think I'd lose it, not so fast.

I believe the worst feeling is losing someone you care for and love so bad and knowing you can't do anything about it, because in my case it's for their own good.
I guess people just come a go in your life and you have to enjoy and never take for granted ...

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September 28, 2014
 

Haven't been around here for a while now and I must say I've been missing this.

You know, the feeling of letting it all out in a letter, expressing yourself completely in just a simple letter.

The fact of how liberating it feels never ceases to impress me, for real. And the best part is that you don't know how or who you might be helping with the writing, someone that maybe is in your same situation and doesn't know how to deal with it, not saying you precisely know how to deal with every situation but the fact you're writing about it shows that you are trying to figure out how to do it and let me tell you, that's all you need.

Helping others, for me, will always be the reason of my existe...

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August 25, 2014
 

I'm imagining a day where I wake up next to you, cuddling peacefully, giving you those little kisses you love, laughing, deciding what are we having for breakfast and who's going to cook it but secretly wanting you tell me you're gonna prepare it so I can sneak in the kitchen and steal kisses from you.

And yes, that's my idea of a perfect morning.

Wishing I wake up to you, loving me..

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August 2, 2014
 

I will take care of you always.
I will take you to parks, museums and theaters.
I will buy roses for you.
I will cook for you.
I will serenade you.
I will cuddle with you all day.
I will teach you things you don't know.
I will listen to you.
I will kiss you in the most lovely ways.
I will hug you and you'll feel all my love in every hug.
I will take you to journeys with me.
I will never take you for granted.
I will tell you how beautiful you look every second of the day.
I will respect and protect you.
I will fight for you.
I will make this worth it.
I will take you to the beach.
I will give you handwritten love letters.
I will hang out with your friends.
I will never leave you.
I will love y...

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July 21, 2014
 

I find it quite fitting to write about you whenever I'm in here, it just feels right, to express all my thoughts for you in a simple and lovely letter.

You've helped me so much in a lot of ways that I know I will never be able to repay you, and that's when you know you got something real, when you can't repay the other person.

When I think about all the things I've learned from you and all the things you've taught me I feel extremely overwhelmed and joyful.

I know I'm not the person I should be, I have a lot of issues that I'm working on, but I truly believe that eventually I'll get trough it... After all I have the best person beside me, of course, I'm talking about you.

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June 26, 2014
 

Today I realized I've never met someone like you, talking about personality wise, someone as sweet and intense like you. Someone who never stops until their goal is accomplished. Someone who tries their best always. Someone who captivates people with their intelligence. Someone who talks and makes everyone listen. Someone who is simply trying to best they can be.

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June 24, 2014
 

You've been kinda moody these couple of days, and it's totally fine. We all are a little moody every know and then, as we deserve to be happy and joyful we also deserve to be sad and thoughtful.

The only important thing is that you never forget how to smile, cause damn I'd die without that beautiful smile of yours.

It's the ups and downs in life that make it such a thrilling ride!

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June 17, 2014
 

One day I read that love letters have an unusual characteristic, being that when you start to write one, you don't know what to write and when you finish it you have no idea of what you've written.

I must say truer words have never been said; it just flows when you drown into the memories, stories and feelings you have for that special person.

Every time I write for you a thousands of ideas surround my mind and I just cannot pick one that's better than the other, all of the things we do, we say, leave a special mark I just can't forget about.

Today, you look stunning, I mean there aren't words to describe how beautiful you look today, and I know it doesn't seem real because you are so trul...

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June 12, 2014
 

The other day when we were talking, I was telling you a lot of things that are happening in my life, bad things, and what you did was awesome. Of all the bad things that I told you came with the bright-side and that really showed me that you care and that you wanted me to feel better, despite all of the things that I'm going through.

I must say it made my day, I didn't want that moment to end cause it was so real, our connection, everything.

You've helped me in a lot of ways and thanks to all your advices and words I've become a better version of myself.

One more reason to be falling so hard for you...

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June 8, 2014
 

You are my inspiration, therefor I write for you, as the only form of gratefulness I can think of.

Looking at you I realize I could spend hours doing it, just staring at you; while you laugh, while you think, while you write, while you smile and even while you do all those silly faces.

For you, I can be anything; I'm such a clumsy fool in love you.

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June 6, 2014
 

Thinking about my week and missing your pretty face, baby, missing the way you look at me, that lovely flirting attitude you have, the way you smell, the sound of your laugh, your voice, all of you.

Even when I see you for a second my day is made. Only one smile and you leave me in the clouds. One touch and I think about that all day. One laugh and I fall more in love with you.

You got me, I never thought I'd say this, but you do.

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June 4, 2014
 

Yesterday I received a huge compliment while I was working out, it made me so happy but also left me thinking for a while. This person told me that I was awesome and that he looked up to me, he even told me I was the best of all the girls that do what I do, which is boxing.

A lot of people tell me to quit, that the sport is not for girls, that the bruises are not worth it; but let me tell you, that comment I received yesterday pushed away all the bad comments I've been receiving for all the time I've been doing this.

I believe all we need sometimes is someone to give us a little push, a little comment that brights up our day, a compliment. It really helps. And all of us can do it, no matter...

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June 3, 2014
 

My God you're stunning, I swear I've never seen anyone as beautiful as you...

Your beauty is not only physical but personality wise as well.

Those lovely eyes, that unique smile, those kissable lips, that perfect body, the way you talk, the way you express yourself, your intelligence, your determination to achieve your goals, your hope; I just cannot list all of the things you do that take my breath away.

You are amazing in every sense, you're what I've always wanted.

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June 1, 2014
 

All you want is someone who fights for you, even if that's the last thing they'll do.
Someone who stands right next to you at your highest and holds you tight at your lowest.
Someone who always respects and protects you.
Someone who shows you they love you every single day of their lives and in all the ways they can.
Someone who makes you fall hard in love and fall just as hard as you.
Someone who makes priceless memories with you.
Someone who makes you feel you're the most beautiful being in the world.
Someone who buys you flowers for no apparent reason, just to remind you of their love.
Someone who kisses you gently but passionately also.
Someone who keeps you on their mind all day, and mak...

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May 29, 2014
 

J'ai pensé en t'écrire une lettre en la langue de l'amour, le français; parce que tu m'inspires en tous les langues.

Mon amour, j'adore ta sourire, c'est belle mais ne se la compare pas à ta beauté.

Je suis complètement en amour avec tes yeux, tes mains, tes gestes, la façon dont tu me regardes, la façon dont tu me touches, la façon dont tu vois la vie.

Tu es magnifique dans tous les sens, je t'aime...

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May 28, 2014
 

I just love it when I catch you staring at me and that beautiful smile you give me, oh la lá; but what I love the most is that you always find a way to talk or just tickle me, and when I do the same your smile is priceless.

You are beyond beautiful, there are no words to paint a picture of you, no words can describe you, not even perfect.

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May 24, 2014
Guayaquil, Ecuador

Spending all day at the beach, teach you how to surf, feeling the stoke, hug you while we watch the sunset, bonfire with marshmallows while I serenade you, goodnight kisses, waking up to you, kiss your back while we cuddle, breakfast in bed with some flowers and a love letter to remind you how much you mean to me... Yes, that's how it would be.

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May 23, 2014
Guayaquil, Ecuador

The taste of your lips, how can I even describe it?

The only thing that comes to my mind when I think about that is the sea... Your lips taste like the sea, and the sea has always been home to me.

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May 23, 2014
 

I'm here, sitting in my French class and all I want is for it to end 'cause I know I'll see you in my next class...

I'm so sleepy and tired but only God knows how much I want to see you, it's basically what keeps me awake, the thought of you.

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May 23, 2014
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Me inspiras de la forma más pura posible.
Sólo con verte me siento feliz, es una felicidad diferente. Podría decir que es la verdadera felicidad...

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