|I write to calm my oceans... @unspokenthoughts30|
As you are going away, and everybody is saying you goodbye in their own ways, I thought I should not shy away from this that have created which feels like a space in my heart, so here it goes.
I wrote my first lettr on September 1st 2014, I thought let's try out this application, little did I knew it won't remain just an application but will become a part of my life and will effect the course of my life.
As I've grown from 19 year old to 25, I've been through different phases of my life and one can clearly see it by going through my feed. Lettrs became a safe space for me, a place where I was never judged for feeling what I truly felt. It became a beautiful diary of my emotions, ...
His story of love at first sight
My first day of college, I went to sit on the last bench, it's a good place to observe people, all these new faces, but my eyes got stuck on her, ohh she, can I explain, okay I'll try, she's this relatively tall girl, with dusky skin and Silky hair, I asked my friend her name, nobody knows!
It's been few months, I atleast know her name now, hehehe only if I had enough courage to talk to her!!
I got a book issued today, the entry page was filled, and the last row had her name, sir said to write on the other side, but I forcefully wrote just below her's.
We are going to a college trip, I wonder if she's going!
We are at railway station, my best friends ...
Let me tell you a secret,
Life can be a beautiful dream for even the most unfortunate ones and it can be a nightmare for even the most fortunate ones.
The secret is, how you make your world a happy place, it's all in YOUR hand and YOUR mind.
Will you ever cry for me? she asked
No, I will die but I won't cry, he claimed.
Why don't you ever say something about our love? She was sad
I don't feel the need to, he was tough as usual.
One month later, when he was going through rough times, he called her out of the blue with teary eyes, and said,
You are best thing that has ever happened to me, and I mean it, with my purest heart. The way you light up my world, you give me peace, my day remains incomplete without you, and the only thing I want from my life, is to give you all the happiness of this world, I don't want a single tear in your eyes and all I want to do is support you, in all your good and bad times. You've taught me how one ...
Sometimes things get so tough that you feel like giving up,
Giving up on everybody
It feels like you've done enough, no, more than enough to make everyone happy and maybe this is where you reach your threshold limit, this is where you finally let go.
My whole life I've been a people pleaser, I always tried to make everyone happy, literally everyone, I tried to understand everyone everytime, even when I was hurt, I placed relationships prior to my feelings. I was always welcoming, cared for everyone, talked to everyone even when I wanted to shout go away, yeah that's me.
And although am working on myself daily, and trying to be less concerned about what everyone has to say, I know these are ...
We need to realise that being sadist is NOT cool.
Being passive is not pleasing.
If your sarcasm is initiating sadness then it's your responsibility to put your act together.
Spreading hateness is not smart.
If shredding apart someone's life, someone's happiness, gives you pleasure, then something is wrong with you.
Maybe if it would've been little less it would've been better
Maybe if our love would've been less then it would've been better.
Maybe then I would've tried to make you fall in love with me, I would've tried to be the best version of myself, to make you head over heels for me, but now I don't feel the need to do all that cause you've seen my worst many, many times, and your love is still the same, regardless of how I may become sometimes.
Maybe if my love for you would've been a little less then you would've appreciated me a little more, took care of me a little more, but now you are habitual of me and you don't wanna paise me anymore, you know my capabilities and expect no less than that...
में तुम्हे देखना चाहता हूं, फोन पर नहीं वास्तविक में, देखना चाहता हूं कि जब तुम अपने बंधे हुए बाल खोलकर संवारती होगी तो कैसे लगती होगी।
में सुनना चाहता हूं, तुम्हारे आने से पहले की आहट, और उनसे पहचान करना चाहता हूं।
तुम्हारी हसी को अपनी रूंह तक पहुंचना चाहता हूं।
तुम्हारे हाथ अपने हाथ में लेके उनकी लंबाई मापना चाहता हूं ।
और मुझे जानना है कि जब तुम गीत गुनगुनाती हो, तो अपने पैरो को किस ओर घूमती हो।
Sad in darkness
Don't ask me how I am
Cause the things I've shoved down my heart, am scared they might reappear.
Am scared I'll burst into tears, and the thousand things that have broken me down, will break me one more time.
Am scared that if you'll ask me how I am, then I'll tell you everything and the things which chokes me, might not be good enough for you to even consider.
So let me be however I am, let me try to heal myself, let me put a blanket over these emotions, and let me smile through it, and maybe one day it'll all become a reality.
I remember the nightmare in which I lost you,
I remember waking up horrified, I texted you early in the morning, asking if you are okay, but you were not online. My heart was still beating fast I tried to think something happy, but somehow ended up in that nightmare. I felt like crying in sleep which eventually woke me up, I decided to not sleep anymore.
You texted me, asking what happened, if everything is fine, I told you and you laughed, saying that this nightmare have actually increased your lifeline, I felt better, but I still remember the feeling of that night when I laid on my bed, scared to have that nightmare again, I tried to exhaust myself so that I won't have any nightmare.
I feel like your soulmate when you share your deepest secrets with me.
I feel like your life partner when you describe your dreams, your future plans, and I am always in them.
I feel like a mother when you call to ask me what should you eat in sickness.
I feel like your best friend when we gossip about your friends.
I feel like your guide when I am the first person you call in distress.
I feel like your colleague when you tell me about everything about your work and undertake my inputs.
I feel like a teacher when I scold you for doing something wrong and you listen to me.
Even when you dont say anything to me, I feel like am your everything.
I will cross the oceans
I will walk through fire
I will turn the world around
I will tear the earth apart
I will do everything, to reach you, just promise when I find you,
you will not hate me for bleeding.
Your words will mean nothing, those long letters will mean nothing.
As long as your actions doesn't reciprocate your words, your happiness will be momentary.
When the storm surged higher
I thought you'll hold me even tighter, rather you disappeared with it.
Mene socha tha me ek lekhak hu, tum kuch nahi bhi bologe to mere pass shabdo ki kami ni hogi.
Par ab tumhare shabdo ki kami mere shabd poori nahi kar pa rahe.
Me chahti hu ki mere shabd, hm dono ke beech ka vo baandh ban sake, jiske sahare, hm pass aa sake.
Par mere shabd ab aadhe adhure se lagte hai, jaise inka kuch ansh kahin gayab ho chuka hai.
Bahut sochne pe smjh aata hai ki shayad shabd mere the aur unka arth tum, shayd isliye ab jb tum nahi ho, to me apne khokle shabdo ke sahare tum tak pahchane me asafal hu aur tum bethe ho us paar apna arth liye jo mere shabdo ke bina nirakaar hai.
ये जो हर बार टूट कर जुण जाते थे वो,
हमने समझा ही नही कुछ हिस्से छोड़ते चले आते थे वो।
Things will never be the same again, he said.
But that's okay, we'll make fresh memory, we'll start from the beginning, we'll fall in love all over again, she said.
It's easy to say, he said.
I know it's gonna be difficult, but I can't give up on you, more importantly I don't want to, she held him.
Please don't ever leave me,I can't imagine my life without you, he looked into her eyes.
Then don't, and she leaned for a sweet sweet kiss!!
When you get a stain on your cloth what do you do instantly, you rush for water and try to remove it, you then try chemicals to remove any trace of that stain on your shiny new peice of clothing. You do it all by yourself and don't expect anyone else to do it for you.
Have you ever thought about what do you do with yourself when a bad experience "stains" your heart. You let it penetrate into you, you let the stain gets darker by adding thoughts of your own imagination into it, you further exaggerate it, all by yourself rather than just washing away.
When one incident affects your life, be it the biggest and the ugliest stain. Don't put thoughts of your mind into it to further deepen...
Things change with time, you get habitual into new frames of life and don't miss your oldself, but every once in a while you come across something, a call, a picture, a song that makes you feel that the old you is still hidden somewhere inside you!
I don't want to show the world how deeply we are in love or how perfect our lives are, I want to be called that boring couple, who are lost in each other's solitude.
Enough of being mature and cool, let's be hopelessly romantic for once,
Where when I'll be shivering in cold you put your jacket on me, and I won't say don't be a superhuman, you'll be cold without it too, instead simply put it on and feel the warmth.
Where when you'll come to save me in a life crisis situation I won't ask how you got here instead probably hug you.
Where I'll actually come to see you off at platform rather than putting rationality of time in it.
Where when you'll be jealous with any of my friends I'll find it cute instead of saying it can't work like this.
Where we'll actually hold hands while walking rather than saying it's too cliche.
Honestly I don't know what's bei...
This world is suffering, my country is wounded with no cure possible, and its no surprise that we are fighting, the whole world is fighting it, trying to save humankind.
But as the whole world is fighting this virus, my country is fighting another battle, battle of poverty, it's rightly said that poverty is the worst enemy. We can fight this virus by staying isolated in our home, but what about those who are poor, firstly they migrated cause they didn't had enough opportunity in their villages and now they've lost their jobs cause all business are shut, they are daily earners, so they are left with no money and hence they decided to go back to their village, hoping they'll have a roof over t...
When the first time I saw you walking out of your gate while we were waiting for you, I clinched my sister and said, if he proposes you, you have to say yes!
You liked my sisters and always used to sent me chocolates with her whenever she came back from college, hehe you wanted to win her heart, and you knew it went through me ( heheh no we are sole enemies, just kidding)
You also used to sent me gifts on my birthday via my sister, and it felt so good, resulting me telling my sisters everything I love about you and why she should obviously be with you.
I don't know why, but I just wanted you guys to be together so badly, I knew you loved her so deeply, and you were just so modest, genuin...
My dearest little sister
Happy birthday Jhalli, may you live a long and happy life. May all conquer every goal you set your mind to. May you achieve everything that you desire.
You know jhalli that's pretty much all what everyone will wish you, that's what I wish you as well cause everyone wants you to be happy! But on your birthday as your elder sister lemme give you some tips and tricks of this life that I've got alongwith my own ride:
1) The world is as beautiful or as ugly as you may think, what's inside is outside. So dear try and make your world a gorgeous place.
2) Its not wrong to have a belief system, on which you work on, a set of values you pursue, but darling try to avoid forcing ...
But honey the moon only looks beautiful cause of all the darkness around it.
You, YOU my love are a sun that light up hundreds of these moons✨
My dearest choti di
I made pizza today without you, and unlike I imagined, I didn't liked getting all those portions without fighting you. I miss you a lot nowadays, maybe especially because everybody's gone. I've got no one to roam with now. You know it's been more than a month since I've gone out, it was easy when you were here, everything was or maybe cause nowadays you are so busy to even talk to me.
You've this capability of making everything seem so easy, you never complain with your life, you always find happiness in everything, and I used to think and sometimes jealous as well of how your life is so perfect. Not that it's not, you are a medal holder in your post graduation, you mar...
I've always tried to be perfect,to fit into everyone's definition of perfect.
I've tried to be a perfect daughter, a perfect sister, a perfect friend, a perfect lover, and a perfect human being.
But it's only lately that I've realised that's never gonna happen, there is no limit to this perfection that I chase.
This approval that I crave from everybody, that am perfect, it's never gonna happen, cause honestly there's nothing like perfect.
I've made mistakes, tons of it, I've hurt people who love me, I've said them the meanest words, words that can pierce your heart, and leave you broken. I've compared love with those of trending posts on social media and then fought over a word, or a differ...
I wanna write for you today, it's been a while, but what?
The fact that you love me and would do anything for me, nahh.
The fact that one thing I love about you the most is even if you've a single penny left with you, you'll spend it on me rather than yourself, every single time, nahh, we all know that.
Let's talk about something new, like how you are literally incapable of expressing yourself, leave aside writing something for me, and how I on the opposite side doesn't appreciate keeping things in my mind, regardless it being sweet or bitter. Maybe it's better like this, because that way I get to talk about me and my feelings, but somedays I know I've cried waiting for you to express yoursel...