|I'm just an ordinary woman who like writing in English, even I know my English is not so good.|
Hurt and drench with tears,
Hurt with your ignorance,
I attempt to calm down,
And cultivate the power inside me,
To get through my day without you,
Because.. Being honest to yourself,
Is the best thing to do than being a hypocrite.
When you are in love,
And you get hurt,
It is like a cut,
Sometimes you don't realize,
How much you care for someone,
Until they stop caring for you.
How painful my heart is,
When my presence not considered to exist,
No sounds at all...just silence,
Feeling this hurt embrace me so beautiful,
I keep myself busy with things to do,
But every time I pause,your face always come in my mind,
Your scars lesser painful,
The pain of broken heart,
You hurt me...so deep,
"Are you happy now?"
~Darkness and pain~
You drag me down into darkness,
Making myself fill with darkness,
The darkness come over me from my other side,
And release me from the pain,
The pain that you give to me so deep,
Crawling in my shadow remove my pain,
The darkness embrace me so tight,
You drag me deep into the black hole,
Black hole that full off sorrow and painful,
Make me scream out loud,
I cover my ears trying not to cry,
But I fail.....the scream and cry always,
Continue over and over again,
I'm drowning into emptiness,
I don't need any pity from you
If you want to love me sincerely
If you want to be with me,with your consciousness...
Don't play with my feeling,because I can get hurt
If you want to accept me what I am...my whole self by accepting all deficiency in me...
Because I will do the same
Loving someone is to accept what you are
If you can't do that...then leave me
I know,I'll be heart broken,but I'll recover
I will rise again...to learn to accept the new love,that will make me whole again
Lost of a purity
You have taken the essence of me without thinking how my fate will be later on
How I live my life without my essence
At that time you took my essence by forced
At that time you didn't care about my scream
How I struggled free myself from your clutched
You shut my mouth with your hands...then you tied both my hands and my legs...
You began to do that damn thing..
You took my purity..took my essence
You ignored my tears...and you stopped after you released your essence
You left me lying weak...helpless
All I can do at that moment was silent
Only scream of my heart are heard and realized...that I'm not pure anymore
My desires is always the same , wherever life deposits me
It seems impossible that desire can sometimes transform in to devotion that I carefully tended grew lust to embrace my heart
She finds the sky amazing
She hails the moon shining
Little did she know
All was due to her smiling
Her smiling make him stroking
He feels her skins embrace him
They reunite in the silent night
With the sky full of stars
And feel the orgasms deep inside them
✏collabs with @victor&words (part 1)
@mynightprayerwords (part 2)
HE (part 3)
He writes tales that someday were meant to be heard
He held the quill in his hand and knew the power of a word
He had a weakness for ink because he'd seen it create history
He had witnessed paper carrying realms and ink dissolving hearts in a mystery
HE (part 2)
They called him insane
But he was a free soul
He loved his life like a crazy lover
No matter what he was told
Helping others was kind of his job
Humanity was something he had that no evil could rob
WHY I WRITE
My name is Selly,I'm from Indonesia. I started writing when I was in high school,but then I stopped. And I started again 2 months a go. Writing make me feel alive,its my comfort zone. I feel real me when I write, feel like freedom. I have mental issues,I have anxiety and depression... When my mental issues came,I write whatever came in my mind.. It really helped... Well..even my grammars not so perfect,but I feel comfort when I write in English,I don't know why,but it happen. And I don't care people like my writing or not,all I want to do is write..write...write...
HE (part 1)
He had a charm that every girl desired
His smile was the kind that only angels aspired
He got a gift to live in a mysterious dream or maybe He was just trapped , where no one could hear his silent screams
Time after time that i extant
I'm still sealed to be allegiant...await for you...expecting you..
Although i know thaf it will be worth it
I'm still sealed to be allegiant
I demand myself.....my inmost heart
Is it still proper for him to await?
Prior to the restraint of my linger?
That i recognize now.....i'm still sealed to be allegiant
Birdschirping on a sunny morning indicating the morning had dawned open my window
I breathed the air in the morning of dew in my bedroom window
The cool air that tickled my body made me curl back under my blanket
I put my head under the covers to protect my eyes with my eyes the morning sun had awakened...illuminated my whole bedroom...made me feel warm again..
Dazzling remembrance with you will never be forgotton....even now i can only look at your photograph and visit your eternal home..
Realizing mistakes or misconduct and finding it difficult to apologize is one of the toughest signs of human heart,while someone who is hurt learns to forgive even though it is difficult
Consistently I demand advancing unseen...... So I can eternally creep up on my affair of the heart..
Consistently I demand advancing unseen... So I can eternally March next to you.... Beyond you aware that I eternally long you..
Although alter to apparent... You pushing me away
Because you scared of yourself... That you want me more than before..
Embrace the pain... Be friends with the pain
Because the person who gave it to you does not care about your pain..
He/she only think of his/her self-confidence with his/her selfishness...
Though the sigh you only can do.... But embrace the pain...because it make you tough and strong than before...
it is very unfair if you expect friends but when you get friends, they do not trust you ... just for some reason ..
And I just can say...."whatever"
✏ when you conclude to leave me
At that moment I know.... That
You get rid of me from your life
✏ when you conclude to avoid me...
Then I know that you are just a piece of the story that interrupted in my life...
✏ because I have found the best one for my life...
✏ I should excuse the reason for refusing you
✏ but on the one hand...I want you so much...
✏ on one side of light.....you are so forbidden to me....
📌 do I have to wait..?
📌 which side will dominate..?
If the dominating side appears....then you will know what I choose....
✏ my fear finally materialized
So much is realized
So I can not save my soul
My black soul is full of darkness......
Full of sins.....
Which made me grow up like a lost soul-eating giant
Save me....watch me......
Or I will ruin everything I pass...
✏ when I stand in front of the glass ... what do I see?
who is in front of the glass?
is it me or my twin trying to get out of the glass side on the other side?
is it so obvious that sighting is visible to the naked eye
that I who stood here actually wanted to exchange places with me standing across the glass?
a clear reflection illustrated from a glass
who am I and what person am I?