|Take your time with things. Do not let people take you for granted.|
He was right there, waiting..
In the corner of my very own mind. I close my eyes and I see his dark chestnut eyes, his dark chocolate hair, and his smooth silky skin.
He's mine. I think to myself or at least that is what I tell myself.
You don't ever really stop to appreciate the things that life grants you.. Like a car, a house, a good partner, a good family.
I .. I wanted more than that. I really did, it was 2 in the morning and I was thinking about the butterflies in my stomach. The ones that lived there long ago spelling out his name inside my very gut. He laid there beside me I could hear him breathing, seeing how the moon hits his chest as I see it rise and fall. He is real: my...
You and I..
When I met you, I believed that I had met the man of my dreams. Someone who shared the same ideas, dreams, aspirations, and future plans. We spent many years together and though we were long distance things always felt close and tight knit because we had TRUST.
I trusted you more than I should have. You never gave me reason to doubt your loyalty towards me. You told me things and I believed you. But as time went on tour skin started to shed and reveal your true colors. The curtains had dropped and so did the trust, honestly I felt cornered and blind sided by the man of my dreams.
You did inappropriate things behind my back. Though you reassured me it wasn’t a big deal.. it ...
It’s weird, isn’t it?
How we can spend so much time with someone we love. And then one day they become only bit a memory.
To have been with you was a journey.
Today you and I are still learning.
We learn everyday how to cope with the idea that sooner or later we will not be together.
Well.. not in the way that we want.
Love should never be so hard, but nonchalant.
So where do we go from here? The ball is in your court my dear.
Whatever you choose, and wherever you go.
I hope you find peace and are ready to grow.
Wishing you the best, my lover my friend.
I’m sorry we couldn’t be together until the end.
& it will always be hard, when we part ways. We weren’t ready for the goodbye, but we were always going to be headed in that direction my love. And that in itself is what is tragic.
This is all I want to say:
I loved you, With all my heart and I still do but I think we both know that our fairytale our story the one that we created together. That love story .. the chapter is closing and unfortunately I guess we don’t get a happy ever after because my love for you was never going to be enough and I wish I had known that before I fell really hard for you . I just hope that when you do find her, I hope that you put her on a throne, treat her like gold and never ever... take her for granted.
She was beautiful, I wasn’t sure what it was that had me attracted. Her eyes and the way she moved, had me distracted. Somewhere down the line we would meet again, and I’d feel al the butterflies inside me once more.
Once you have stepped inside the Devil’s den.. it’s hard to escape .
To be loved or to be hated? It's all good because the mind is faded.
But why are you walking around like your heart is jaded.
You loved too much and now your heart is gated.
Sometime down the line, you were hurt with everything inside your mind.
It was a path so foggy, she was someone you would always try to find.
Let my voice be your guide, when life is tough ill get you through the ride. It won’t always be easy, we won’t agree on the same matter. We will be silent and we will create chatter. I’m mot sure if things will always be green on the other side. But I know ill always be there with you along for the ride. The journey which we embark on will have curvy trails and hidden spots. Nothing will blind us, we gave an oath to one another. For better or for worse, we will love each other. That is my promise to you, my partner.. my best friend. I’ll ride with you until the very end.
The worst thing you could do, is trust someone with your whole heart. Not knowning the motives behind that person’s personal agenda.. towards your emotions.
I felt at peace, I still do. When I hear your voice. No matter how many lives I live, you will always be my 1st choice. My best friend, my lover. A love like this oh not like any other. You and me against the world, side by side. I miss you so much, I dream of the way it feels when we touch. Though we watch the same moon, from different cities, I watch the same stars too. I count the days down, until I am once more in your arms. I want to feel you next to me, I want to feel ur breath upon my skin. I want to feel everything, even when time is precious and wears thin.
I look forward. To seeing you again.
I cannot wait for the journey that awaits me. Full of adventure, happiness, struggle, and changes. But I am happy because what is life? If it is not a journey??
I wanted to but couldn’t.
You stepped away, I wouldn’t
I loved you like the sea was deep.
Lick my wounds, as I slowly weep.
I wanted to, everything and more.
Someone I trust, someone I adore.
Though no one is perfect, and though times are rough. We still see it through the good and the tough.
You were sinking, like an anchor.
Deep into parts of the ocean I couldn’t get to. I wanted so much.
I needed you, needed your touch.
Somehow in a place which was very still. I was an ocean with tides that could drown a hill. I pushed until you told me, what the deal really was.
So my ocean’s tides were calm. But soon they would sail from you. And my tides will sail you to where you want to go....
You were an angel, and I put so much trust into this art we painted onto our convas. Oh the art was beautiful, it really was. We painted an image of a heaven we had dreamed of, we both cared so much about things. So passionate about the life that we wanted. Now the canavas it is old and it is haunted. By the idea that this could ever be so still, you wanted me. The princess out of spite and sin.
I won’t stop you from loving somebody else, never will I ever want to be the bridge between you and the happiest place you go to. Have we made mistakes? Have we been good to the world which shames us everyday of the way that we are? You and me, are we the things which we wish to be? Can we ever surv...
We laid there for a very long time, dreaming of a life we once had.
Thinking of all the ways that life had been bad. We were lost kids searching for the answers to Never Land. It's the answers we crave for, we didn't have.
Somewhere deep into the meadow where the grass runs steep. We held onto each other, you were mine to keep. We laid there for a long time gazing into each others soul. For a split moment, my love I thought I felt whole.
But the world had torn us apart, manipulated our DNA to what we were now.
So scarred, by life's curve balls, it is not why but it is the questions of how.
Can we heal from the lies, from the deceit the world plants in our brain.
Could we run far ...
Baby girl was so young standing and 5 point 2. She had black hair, fair skin and eyes that were piercing of blue. When Annie was younger she began to walk to the woods once every other day. She stayed there until the sunset, in the green grass she would lay.
Annie was special, she could feel mother nature and she could hear the animals whisper as they passed by. She was quite alone in a place that she would eventually one day die. The deep woods so dark and so deep, she would lay there with all of the animals to watch her as she would sleep.
Annie was smart, she knew what she wanted. That was until the day that she had seen Ben. He had blonde hair, fair skin and two ...
Time, oh time how I search for you, I search it in me.
Where have you gone love? How long has it been? Maybe a century or maybe a couple, I was determined to make this temporary time supple.
You held me close, your lips at my collarbone each kiss to the neck.
Oh how I trembled, my insides collapsed, it was a war zone I was a wreck. You had it all the looks, the charms, the lifestyle, the money.
I was never looking for what you needed, this was our story it was quite funny.
Someplace deep between the stars and the constellations our souls had met in the centre and that is how it all happened. So quick so fast, surely it was fate... we were built to last.
One morning when the fog h...
We laid there, don't you remember? Or do you seem to forget?
"Take my hand" you whispered was that your voice of regret?
To be honest I really don't know, maybe it was our turn to grow.
Don't take my kindness for weakness because I am not weak.
Sometimes late in the hour, I can hear the sadness as you speak.
We talk about passions, dreams, and wandering as our souls collide.
They collide with the universe of which is our own, side by side.
I want to remember your face, your laugh when our bones grow old.
Take me with you, when it is time to go, greatest love story ever told.
For a long time I knew, that somehow you would find me.
Somehow I would find you too. But when I saw you ...
I want to touch you but you are so out of reach.
You caress my tears like theres something you want to teach.
Down a dark dark hole buried beyond the darkness, I am alone.
Was I dreaming, was this all just so real?
Emptiness, it is the only emotion you let me feel.
Clawing your ways into my heart, and then into my brain.
You are the emotion I can feel, my insides become clouds with rain.
Let me breathe, let me breathe, let me do the things I love.
Smile more, smile more I tell myself with every breath I take.
But the emotions inside me crack on the surface, something you can't fake.
It is a dark forest, so muddy, so wet. It is the silent place where we met.
A calm place you...
Maybe we were scared.
Maybe we were naive to let someone in.
Give them power, put those memories in a bin.
With plastic hearts which do not beat, for they are always on the run.
Wanting to play with my heart, wanting to have the fun.
Thoughts they linger in the wake of late in the night.
Sometimes it's things like this we just cannot fight.
Like why do you do the things that you do?
Who do you love? Is it a tale painted so blue?
Does she caress your face, does she smile?
Is it true love? Or is this just passing time for a while?
Tell me.. how do you define the greatest love story ever told?
Are there butterflies thoughts of you getting old.
Is she the music to your ears,...
I saw brightness and I saw light, someplace distant though and from afar it still felt right. To watch you, just to see you make them smile for another minute without my presence without my love. What were you waiting for and who was holding you back? You were fighting thoughts and emotions you were under attack. You asked me one night as we laid there in the grass so green you asked me " am I capable of loving? or being loved back?"
I laughed because I knew you were capable of a great love story. I saw the love that you had wanted to give to the world, to the one girl you had been saving your heart for. I wish I could have seen you, seen the things you could have done with your life. But...
So I walked a lonely road, a road so dark so cold. I stood before a girl I thought that I knew. But maybe it was her that I out grew. You know the innocent girl, she didn’t know of pain, only rainbows.
I cannot understand myself, I am me.
But now I must leave myself, to understand the feelings of which consume me.
There was a time that my thoughts were consumed with you. The thoughts of where you made me feel so blue. You disgusted me, you had broken me, damaged me. So I had to wait for someone to pick up my broken pieces to put me back. But the piles of emotions always stack. You were a pig of a human, only caring about your needs and that night I had met the devil. Oh how you did what you did to pain my soul. Took me years upon years just to feel like me and somewhat whole. You took a part of me I can never get back, a part of me that you forver have. Over the years I don’t know what I was searching for. Maybe it was closure, maybe it was just to hear you say sorry for the thing you put me through. ...
My mind starts to drift, into a place where I feel at peace. A place where nothing happens after you decease.
I paint a picture of colors where they explode into happiness of which I wish to feel. Someday we will all somehow heal.
How do I separate my my love and my pain?
Can I ever love you, can I do it again?
Here I am wondering about a love we had, it seeped deep into my very soul. So at the end of the road I stand, but this time I am not whole.
I think everyone has their faults, everyone is constantly learning about themselves but I am torturing myself by waiting for a sun that will never set. How do I get around this, the way that it hurts so much to walk away. I wish I could erase the emotions which you instil in me. How can I set a caged bird, set it so free. I think about a life where you and I are not as one. I think of a scenario where you and I are done. It hurts too much to think of a life where the futu...
It's been a while since I put ink to paper.
I can't seem to shake the thoughts growing like a skyscraper.
We always seem to know the road which we drive.
A road to something meaningful, an eagerness, a thrive.
But then you drive in the dark and miss the road you should have taken. Now you ponder on the thought, your thoughts feel more real, more awaken.
So now here you are driving a road to an unknown destination.
Whose gonna kick it with you, for the time of duration?
Who will it be? Who will you see at the end of that tunnel?
Maybe the people who was always gonna be your ride or die?
Maybe no one though? You can go through this alone.