|Take your time with things. Do not let people take you for granted.|
There is this song, it takes me back.
It takes me right back to a time.
When It was fresh, I was yours and you were mine. The good times we shared, when our love was new and you cared. Oh how this song takes me to every special moment, between you and I. Somehow I have forgotten what it feels like to be loved by a man. Even the memories cannot attach that feeling. Sometimes I wish we lived in a universe where our story did not end.
A story where we are together, we don’t have to pretend. But wishing is nothing but a simple thought heightened.
The song is: first kiss by Joey Pecoraro♥️
Sometimes in silence it is then that I think. Its all gone within a blink.
My happiest moments, the memory of us. It begins to fade, all of the fuss.
I wonder, why did it happen?
Why was it me? Everytime I ask myself, I struggle to agree.
It is unfair.. to sit and think..
That my heart fell to just sink.
To fall like an achor into depths of the sea. That was my love when it came to you and me.
You always came first, never last.
Somehow you ruined it, and you became my past.
What confuses me the most is the question I always end at...
why? Why him and I? Why us? Why this?
I keep asking god for answers,
why he gave me a man who would do me wrong? A man who did not know to whom he belo...
What do you see?
My eyes, or my hair of fire.
Is this truly me?
Am I the girl next door? The one you fantasize, or simply adore?
Am I a mother, a daughter, or just a ghost on your streets?
Or shall we pick up, where we left off inside between your sheets?
Do you tell her how you lead a life with a woman like me? A woman of fire, a woman so free. Does it eat you up inside that this love is kept in the dark? How I imprinted my name on your heart, my name with a mark.
When the film stops rolling and our minds are at rest. Can you guarantee you lived it your best?
Baby.. the time is ticking and I am tired of being just your fiery lover.
Just look at me, tell me you can f...
It was silent, my thoughts ran deep. Images of us lost, burried somehwere in the sea so steep. I smile when images surface like a soul drowning. I wonder what you would say now with your smile, frowning. For a second I forget of the way it was when we were together, a fairy tale that couldn’t last forever. I sit there and hope that you are well, funny.. isn’t ? Because you put me through hell.
I hope to find love again, the kind that is so true. A heart of red and not blue. Thank you for teaching me things I had to learn from you. I hope that I taught you something too.
Brown eyes, porcelain skin.
My blood boiled right within.
She had this smile, succulent but sweet. Her scent of sugar on the first meet.
She was beautiful i thought.
a love cannot be bought.
It was us...
I pictured a moment with just us two. Just for a moment that thought it grew. A wish I thought, a wish my heart had made. Someplace far, in a fairytale.
It’s beautiful really it is.
From heartbreak we learn something we miss.
Maybe I was merely confused when we had met.
Expectations were empty, the stage was set.
I allowed you into my life like a dog who is stray.
I gave you love and in my bed you would lay.
Constantly I ask myself why?
Why did I allow all this to be done to my heart.
I put you on a throne, but you ripped me apart.
My king, you were all to me and more.
Cherished you, every moment I adore.
So finally I made the decision to leave.
Heart ripped open, I gave myself time to grieve.
A heart broken, sometimes a heart so lost.
Lost at sea, was this what love had cost?
In time my ship has sailed and the water run still.
Tell me stories of love which you crave. The type of love that does not die past the grave. Symphonies that you wrote that ignites like fire.
The way you yearn for her desire.
Give me a glimpse of that inside your mind. Something difficult to find.
I want to see your hearts ignite.
Give me a love I can find in plain site.
A love story which cannot be painted.
True love, without secrets, not tainted.
Without strings, not a possesion.
But a story with sincere lovers obsession.
Sometimes it is not fair when we do know know. Which side our heart leans toward to grow. We got to learn to trust our inner gut, it will pull you out of a rut.
But what is love? When you think who it is with? Is it real or fake?
Can we last and what will it take.
A simple hug, holding hand in silence when no one is around. You maybe be my best friend. My lover, I feel safe and sound.
I love you and always will.
I hope this feeling is not just for thrill.
*Finding me again*
For a few months I put the blame on me.
That I walked away from a marriage to be set free.
You used me, you lied, and you cheated.
I felt broken, I cried because I felt defeated.
I left many times, but this time it was for good.
I came to terms you didn't want this, eventually I understood.
It rained for a while before the flowers had bloomed.
Inside my thoughts you were constantly consumed.
I fell hard for you, I made you the king inside my kingdom.
But I was in a circus with you, and somehow you gave me wisdom.
Little by little I picked up the pieces and found the girl I had forgotten.
Her shadow laid silent, she was gone, a love that turned rotten.
Wrote this piece a few years back found it in my journal. Enjoy..
"Hello, I am home sweetie"
To hear that voice, I knew he was finally home.
A sense of nothing became I, we were alone.
He played with my hair, and then with my mind.
There was no place to go, he would remind.
"I am here now love, lets make this easy."
Walking on eggshells, just so people cannot see.
That I am at war, and in the end the prize is to be free.
I watch for ways to win this fight.
Maybe tomorrow I awake, make it through the night.
He is comforting, others leave but he chooses to stay.
Beautiful in silence, he loves me in the shade of gray.
He doesn't leave, I am his one true ...
We fell in love, those were the perfectly penned words in my mind.
Floating above everything just so in the end it is me you can find.
I found myself in a field while the sun rays hit my skin.
The breeze brushed through my hair, happiness vibrated from within.
I heard the music being played straight from your heart.
You picked up the guitar and I heard you tear those strings apart.
I laughed as mother nature captivated us.
Oh the happiest moment I had ever encountered was with you.
The milli-second moments that play, oh how our love grew.
From dusk until dawn we had one another.
The man who would soon become my infinite lover.
The guitar strings came to a stop, your lips ri...
Flying through the colours of the story of our time.
We made one another happy, I was yours and you were mine.
A smile here and there, a smile everywhere.
Places we travelled we made our mark.
You followed me to every place: some happy and some dark.
At one point the music played but time for us stopped.
I felt my heart beating, and felt yours dropped.
You froze, held my face in your hands and kissed me hard.
In that moment, tensions released. I let down my guard.
I trusted you...
You were my prince in shining armour saving my day.
Until the time came, on a day so sad, me you betray.
My heart grew cold and shattered into pieces of ice.
Love was a gamble baby, and d...
His eyes were faithful, his mind was weak. Took his eyes off her to practise the words to speak.
Breaking the rules was never his plan. But he wanted to be her special man.
When the party was over, and it was just himself and her. His realization kicked in: she was the cure. He never hesitated, with blue eyes amd golden hair.
This love story was so unfair.
From friends to lovers or so he wished. This was unlikely so his heart would get squished.
He fantasized about their love.
How it could be.. kind of?
He walked up to her, strung up a conversation. She was beautiful, he thought without hesitation. Lovers or just friends? His wish was to break the rules, he didn’t care how it ends.
Fair skin, pale eyes.
Realising all your stupid lies.
You had me for a second or two.
Beautiful bodies, apart we grew.
A sinister heart, taking me for granted. I was under your spell, so enchanted.
There was a time when you and I were so in love. Everything was so pure and innocent like a dove.
You played me, a game well played indeed. So I walked away before you more lies you would feed.
Take care love, so long.
I hope she was worth it.
Tainted eyes, a love so pure.
Why have I become confused & unsure. You held my hand and baby the devil does not dress in red.
You delivered me to my special place, right to your bed.
Dined me in choclates and wine.
After a couple of moments you were mine.
Or so I thought...?
My heart was yours, my soul was all yours to take. What did you do? You did what you planned, took my heart only for it to break.
So long... my love.
Somewhere in a distant dream we sit across from one another. We both smile, curious eyes as we wonder.
Do you love her? Is she your number one? Did you get over me when the war was done?
Years go by and I still catch myself thinking if you made it out okay.
Do you treat her better? Was I a lesson learned, never forgotten?
I can see in your eyes, on your skin.
You crunble before me, your emotions wearing thin. That is when I realise you were the love of my life.. though life did not want us together.. we were soo perfect.. so right.
I hope that whoever it is that mends your broken heart. I hope you treat her right, wishing you the best baby.
My lover my best friend, in the end you can’...
A blank canvas, fresh slate.
New opportunities, exciting future.
I leave 2018 behind, knowing you
and I are no longer. I leave behind
2018 like I left you. Greatful with
My ink touches the pages, emotions they bleed black and blue.
Ink upon ink, Christmas will be lonely this year without you.
To feel, to touch.
Forgotten that feeling of being in love with the man of my dreams.
I can only feel the way you ripped my heart at its seams.
The memories, oh the memories they play like and old broken film.
Always stuck on one scene, wanting you back that wish is so slim.
We cannot, not now not ever.
There was love and passion, a sly snake you were too clever.
Never will I ever forget.
Not us, this love will I ever regret.
Wasted hours, wasted taste.
Washing my body from you in such a haste.
"You love me" you cry like a baby without a mother.
I love you to the moon and back.
Even you know I can’t deny that.
Every inch of your skin, each tiny cell. My heart ached more as deeper it fell. Deep into the ocean it seemed to sink. There was a connection, a spark, a link.
I don’t want this to ever end, this feeling inside I cannot mend.
Oh how I love you to the moon and back. Baby I can’t deny that
To the love of my life:
Summer of love and memories I can't forget.
You will never be the love I will ever regret.
Wanting it to continue, wishing for it to end.
From start to finish you remain my friend.
Like oil pastel colours I paint our canvas of blue.
You reside in my memories, a grey hue.
Come back to me, but the further you run.
Was this all a thrill to you? Just for fun?
Walk with me, just this one time.
Let me see your dirty secrets filled with grime.
My lover and then my friend.
After everything you put me through, you and I until the end.
Watch your heart break, watch it break in two.
Don't play with emotions, if you can't see it through.
Teach me to lov...
You were a mystery and so was I.
Canoeing through life and it’s wonder.
We fell deep into the ocean, we went under. I touched your soul and you touched mine. You smiled back, reapeating my favourite line. “I’ve loved you for what feels like centuries”
We found one another in a crowd filled with strange faces. Our hearts connected, we travelled places. I often walk through the places in my mind. The places where you I can find. But those places are just old memories of the souls that we once were. You are not you anymore, and neither am I.
But let it be known that we truly did try. The day that it happened, the day that I knew that things would change.
Our lives, the patterns would rearrange. ...
Your eyes smiled back at me.
You were young wild and free.
I loved that about you.
Being whatever you wanted to be.
We laid there in the grass, for what felt like light years turned into centuries. It was you and I, we were by the river enjoying company. Just you and I. You grabbed my hand and smiled, and then you asked me the most important question yet.
“So is this everything you had imagined love to be?”
I smiled and softly let out a breath.
“This is heavenly, it really is.”
That was all that was needed in this moment, love and more love. Never getting enough.
Summer breeze, blue skies. I look at you just to realise. To realise that there is truth between us. Truth in our very own youth. Your body like sand slipping through the cracks. We laugh as we are caught in the moment of love. Ancient sacred love between us.
You and I, in darkness like fire flies these hearts burn with desire. Oh summer, where have you been? The sweetest sight ever seen. Kiss me slowly and then all at once, bury my toes in the sand.
Kiss me slowly while the ocean
orchestrates our love song.
You & I forver.
How were we to start again?
Swaying in the summer breeze.
You and I , I and you. Can you feel the ocean? Can you feel me? Do you see me, how I see you? Oh let the summer nights take us.Let it bring us together, just to tear us apart. Miss me just for tonight love. Maybe miss me for forever.
Let summer begin, and let it end.
Lets savour this, my friend.
Forever summer shall be our anthem, as we sway to the summer breeze. We sway in the direction of love. You and I, I and you.. and in that moment we are defined as lovers. Nothing more.
There we were...
Strangers finally again. You and I. You were my lover, my best friend. Now we don’t talk anymore, no contact. No nothing and I am content with that baby.
Have a great life, and I hope you treat her better than you treated me.
The space between us:
Space & time, dark and light.
You were him, my beautiful knight. We had good memories and some intimate moments that pass me by in a flash. Now all have to be delted, dragged to the trash. We shared many moments, things we wanted and things that we truly did think.
Now that it’s over my heart it is to sink.
To sink to the bottom of the ocean like an anchor. You left me, like I was nothing to you.
You really had me fooled for such a long time. Was this a nightmare? Losing the love of my life? I don’t know anymore..
my heart is heavy and my mind is so blank. A love that once floated, now it just sank.
It feels like my heart being pulled out of my chest. Oh baby that is heart break at its best.
Love of mine.
You are ugly, you aren’t kind.
You pick me apart on your plate.
I loved for so long, now you’re late.
How do I trust you? A love so faded.
You sold me a dream, you’re over-rated. These mind games, these games of chess. You think you gain but you win a little less.
You want me to chas you. I wont.
You want me to want you. I dont.
I loved you, I cared. You were my king. You and I had an amazing thing. Until I found others, who stole your time and love from me. Through blurry eyes I see.
I see the pain and the silly game.
You want me to feel the same.
I cannot.. I just dont.
Bottom line love, I got played.
You sleep in the bed you made.
Time heals all or so they say.
But I can’t sleep, from night to day.
Every morning that I awake, you are no longer my muse. It is hard to tell myself that it is this that I lose.
Once upon a dream, you were my king you were the warmth in my heart. Now all we do is pick each other apart. See you revealed to me that you love to play with my mind. That’s a deal breaker even for me, I’m not that kind.
So I sit here to try an write a piece to you. To tell you that even though I love you so.. you need to let me go. I cannot keep holding onto the love which is now dead. You just gotta let me go babe, that’s all that can be said.
She had the bluest of eyes I had ever seen, and then her long blond hair hung right above her collar bone. She was beautiful I thought to myself, over and over again. Her eyes twinkled as she sat across from me in a room filled with people, all types of people and children. She wore a black cocktail dress and clear gloss against her perfect big lips.
" I'm so happy for you though, like really I am." You voice trailed off as you traced your glass with your finger. I sat there looking right into your eyes for a couple of minutes and listening to your flirtatious laugh. I smiled back because it's like I knew that you were lying through your teeth, whenever it came to my happiness you would s...