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Mike

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United States
26/MN I often drown myself in thought.
July 11, 2018
Duluth, United States

I don’t know where I’m going,
Neither, where I’m headed.
Slowly reaching out
But closing in.
The fate decides,
Where I land.
Not taking credit,
For what’s at hand.
Only speaking less,
Until I freak out.
Completely lost,
Inside my thoughts.
Wandering now,
Through wanderlust.
I’m speaking towards,
My inner self.

When will I see,
That I need help?

MOVEMENT
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June 19, 2018
 

The rays of the sun,
They look so delightful.

Why must my spirit
Feel so damn spiteful.

THAT'S SO SAD
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May 19, 2018
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I
Long for the day,
I
Physically
Can’t
Shed

Another

Tear.

ANCHORMAN
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May 4, 2018
 

Unworthy.

It’s what is waiting at the end.
A string of hope and strung along.
I feel the need to express myself before I’m taken down.
I keep an eye on my future,
While peaking at the past.
I hurt with such open wounds
They closed once before
Though torn again.
I see an opening
An old stitch,
Frayed a bit.
Maybe some new ideals
May sew up my fears.
Help me be aware
The coming tears.
Being weary of what’s ahead,
Has only left me for dead.

GREENPEACE DAY
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April 20, 2018
Duluth, United States

Take it with a grain of salt
The sun beams out
Feeling warmth
Stray leaves fall
Only from the wind
The gusts engulf
The setting sun
A chilly feel
Upon my spine
Whistling winds
And pouring wine
Sit back, relax
Stay awhile

DREAMS
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April 18, 2018
Duluth, United States


Just among
The whistling wind
You call my name
In which to hear

Myself
It seems
Cannot contain
The life at which
You want to claim

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TUNNEL OF ILLUSIONS
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January 23, 2017
Duluth, United States

I can't seem to express,
What I really need to say.

I get closer to the writing,
I slowly back away.

Letting go of everything,
Seems to be my only fear.

Though I still lay here.
Staring at my ceiling.

Losing grip on sanity.
Wondering, if you,
Truly, know the feeling.

THE EDISON BULB
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December 27, 2016
Duluth, United States

Every night, a new moon rises.
Another helping, I'll take some.

Excusing most the dialogue,
Fill those breaths with air
And silent thrusts.

I've got a lot of heart, it flows,
Such a rush, comes and goes.

Searching for a familiar face;
Your shape takes place.

You always seem to find your way, another interruption into play.

I can't seem to find me,
I can't seem to be lively.

Guarding my love here like an ox. Not many let inside my box.

Though we connect through something vivid now.
A likewise feeling of each other's spiritual power.

Freedom is around the corner,
I just need to look forward.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
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December 20, 2016
Duluth, United States

The hardest part for me,
As a professional photographer,
Is getting all ready for the day,
Just to sit in front of my iMac,
Even though, I'm always scrolling.

I'm just so overwhelmed.
I have years of work I haven't shown.
Though my bills are so far behind, situations keep putting me further and further into debt and I can't figure out what to focus on.

There is just so many possible ways to go, I can't quite grasp what I truly want or need.
I'm just... so done with 2016.

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NEVER GIVE UP
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December 5, 2016
Duluth, United States

Yes, I may be liquored up.
The whiskey indeed it speaks to us.

The green, you see, simply fun.
With every puff, I'm less undone.

The booze, it loosens.
The bud, connects us.

Why may I legally blackout,
Though illegally smoke to passout?

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PINEAPPLE FUN
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February 13, 2016
Spicer, United States

I'm sorry for the absence.

I've been drowning
myself
In other arms.

IZABELLA KNOWS BEST
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January 18, 2016
Willmar, United States

"Of course I'm depressed.
But I can put a smile on my face.."

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PIPE
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December 21, 2015
Willmar, United States

April, 2014.

This stress can be a burden,
But we use it for distraction.
She compliments my worrying,
And I'll take it as attraction.

ROSE QUARTZ
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December 16, 2015
Willmar, United States

Boy, it's getting late,
All the ladies asleep away.
Up with no distractions,
Increasing my mind play.

Understanding notions,
Reading all the signs.
I'm hear to write my own terms.
Regardless of the lines.

I speak with my own tongue.
Write with my own hands.
Understanding oneself.
Tight knots at both ends.

Feeding off my mortality.
Increasing my footpath.
Strolling past many scenes,
Staying away from pure wrath.

Come beside me,
Lay awhile.
I don't bite,
I'll caress in style.

WHITE ROSE
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December 15, 2015
Willmar, United States

I really can't escape the space,
Left behind, virtually.
Setting off like napalm,
Burning a hole, lobotomy.

FOG
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December 4, 2015
Willmar, United States

It hurts me so,
Deep down to know.
( You'd shake those words,
Brush them off.
Scared of the potency,
They contained the truth.
You didn't know,
Hidden deep within. )
I was right when I said,
"I love you more."

THE KISS
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December 2, 2015
Willmar, United States

It's exciting to know,
The future that lies ahead,
Will be incredible.

What's not exciting,
The fact you'll be,
..Somewhere else.

SNOW BRIDGE
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December 2, 2015
Willmar, United States

Sitting in my study,
Feeling warmth of fire.
Brushing over my skin,
The heat indeed soothes.

I contemplate my next step.
I forgot about my last step.
Stepping into reality,
Stepping forward, insanity.

Wishful thinking,
I tend to do best.
I'll change my course,
If no time for rest.

You've tread my ocean thoughts.
Tiring, it must be.
Holding your head above water.
Don't drown in my open sea.

Every time the snow,
Dresses my window pane.
I'm stuck inside my "study".
Hoping, one day, to be sane.

INK DROP
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December 1, 2015
Willmar, United States

I'd sit down in my chair,
At the end of my day.
Looking above, overhead.
Hearing what I have to say.

Crippling thoughts appear,
Slowly consuming each memory.
Listing off each reason,
"Did I do too much for 'me'?"

Honestly, I know the answer,
I caught all of the detail.
You were my paragon,
Perfectly placed not to fail.

Though it did.
I feel lost.
Falling in love,
Always a cost.

HAZE
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November 22, 2015
Willmar, United States

Are you able
to see the pain
behind my eyes?

I can feel it.

FOLLOW THE TEAR
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November 22, 2015
Willmar, United States

Why can I never shake this feeling.
Feeling absent in my own self.
Why can't I hear it?
Why can't I hear the longing on her breathe like when we used to smile.
Look deep into each other's eyes and never stray apart.
I've lost myself thus many times.
I can't seem to put my finger on it.

I can't feel my heart. It's numb. Now.

INK DROP
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November 21, 2015
 

Life ain't easy.
Love ain't easy.
Peace ain't easy.

Why treat it as so?
Grow.

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THE CENTER SILENCE
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November 3, 2015
 

Yes, it makes me sick to my stomach.

Everytime I'm stuck there thinking of something.

Feeling quite empty, lonely as nothing.

Hoping you would've understood and take me as I am.

I know we have our differences but I thought we'd end up fam. ily

Crumpling up some memories so I don't tear them apart.

Letting go of my whole world, puts a damper on my heart.

"I know I know I know" is what I always say.

Though every time I hear your voice, I just want to stay.

HOPE BATEMAN
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November 20, 2015
 

When your friends come through.

Really open up the door and let the light shine true.

Thanks for all your words.
I miss her most of all.
Though I have others by my side.
-
Thanks for all the prior love.
Wish it never had to end.
Well, like all good days amongst the past, they must come to blend.

I'll forever miss your kiss.
Please dream of me in symphony.

I'll never quit playing,
I'll never stop flying.

Thanks to you.

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FEELING FREE
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November 17, 2015
Willmar, United States

Am I the only one,

who will stop at random in front of the mirror and stare motionlessly at them self for up to 3 minutes and just really go deep within your fears, insecurities, major dilemmas and then just continue on with the day?

May I never know.

HAND TO THE SUN
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November 17, 2015
Willmar, United States

All I needed was reassurance.
Something to help me realize,

i am definitely something worth fighting for.

You'll see soon enough..

BIRD GATHERING
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November 15, 2015
Willmar, United States

What happens when the butterflies, in your stomach, don't seem to fly anymore?

I feel they all land at the bottom.
All I feel is unbalanced.

SCATTERED
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November 14, 2015
Willmar, United States

I'm lost, alright!

I'll say it again!
I'm lost! Ok?

Not really ok.
Toss these thoughts around.
They don't end up anywhere.
Back to the beginning they go.
Back to where it had started.
Back to the thought that has me grounded.
Sitting here, collecting myself.
Unknowingly picking up pieces you left.
Ideas instilled at the core of myself.
You are but another essence of I.
Another one I had loved, still love, can't seem to get over.
Half a decade gone and what lies ahead?
Moments I can't envision, with people I do not know.
I had everything I thought I needed.
I needed someone by my side.
I hoped you were the one to stay.
Never imagined you'd walk away.

TIMELESS MESSAGE
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November 12, 2015
Willmar, United States

I wanted to write a letter.
A letter to myself, actually.

Noting everything you do without hurting yourself for the things you do. Relax. Deep breathes. You know you'll be alright.

Though the doubt is drowning you in waves of constant emotion.
These moments haven't ever been evident or, at all, something you could have imagined. You've done your best, like you always do. This time around wasn't anything new. Mostly different circumstance with a lot more love and appreciation.

You've thought about this ending though, don't act like you hadn't considered the possible outcome. It's just the reason for this ending wasn't something you thought was plausible.

Never thought that you'd grow tire...

THE GLASS STAMP
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