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We fell apart that night
I could never have anticipated the reconnect
Like you ground my soul to star dust,
Only to smash my bones back to concrete foundations.
To love is to hurt, but to heal and become stronger with one another-
That is a lasting forever lifetime kind of love.
I learned the pain was more deep than physical scars.
His jowl sang ancient songs of war
Icarus soared and still fell in a pool of wax tides
We soar and fall
Just enough to uncomfortably grow
Enough to rise back together to healing love
Dreams were born from old buried mood swings.
My tantrum was tamed and I mourned a dead grave.
No more shall I speak of old names.
It's about us, together, these four...
Today I discovered a tiny colored hair on my clean laundry.
It burned your name.
Fiery and short.
My eyelids shut
As if closing my vision erases the memory.
Trying to shake off the nightmare simply, like it’ll disappear the same way sleep holds dreams. And waking life pleasantly washes them away. Day to day. Living separate life’s under threads of godly veils.
You’re testing my lesson in forgiveness and patience.
I’ve always been the one person who had reserves stocked and ready to heal.
Feeling your betrayal coat my skin in muck reminds me how fucked I’ve become.
I could punish myself again.
Refrain from feeding, call it religious fasting.
I can blame my empty pockets and Je...
I always wished I made your hands feel full with out referring to my attitude.
If the curves were enough don't you think I'd feel the love?
I beg to feel touch
I cry under pillows in efforts to silence moans of foreign loves
I simply am not enough
My name is not the one you call
I don't know if it ever will be
If you didn't lie so hastily
Maybe this wouldn't feel so sharp to me
If we had fluid connection don't you think I'd feel comfortable to sleep?
All these stubborn answers for listless questions
This isn't some test for passing
It's my soul
If you don't bring fire and sweetness I fear I'll be lost entirely
I thought you asked me to stay because you lo...
Live with me
She laser etched this wish into the back of his head
No amount of coercion can harmlessly join two units
If it's selfish, it'll crumble like dust and old fast food receipts
You could feed me more healthily
Had the idea crossed your mind
Do you desire to nourish or satisfy a minimum qualification?
I put myself in your shoes.
I do this when I feel blue.
In efforts to understand the truth.
In efforts to comprehend how you easily lost.
I can't build a scenario that paints you pretty
It's like truth crept in and suddenly my lesson didn't match the text book.
I turned in assignments in a foreign language
I expected you to wear your Katie shoes for this event
I was elated by the idea of you.
Resting beside you each morning.
Entranced by the notion I could be the single boat to sail your ocean.
What an insane wish to commit.
I always knew better than this.
A sinful way to selfishly transform him.
Become a butterfly from fly larvae toe juice.
Guts torn open under surgery lights.
My songs are seasons to immortalize our kind,
The over feeling leechy Queens.
We're the life of the party,
Until they stop watching.
We grow into the wall and watch the watering hole swell.
If I drink more, maybe I'll be numb like them.
If I smell this, and smoke that, I bet I'll forget my past.
I was elated by my time spent with you.
Each day golden, sp...
My mind is a bullet from Clark's eye
Light speed washes memories
I thought I wanted to keep the ones of you with me
Until you unveiled your secret
I feel separation start to brew
No children in a future for you
My mind is molasses mush pie
I'm slowly crawling
Surrounded by fleets of marathon runners
And PTA moms
If you're not running
You're in the support line
I don't fit anywhere inside their parade time
I'm the gravel
Exoskeletons and bruised fruit pits
I feel useless for this
I've felt listless without a purpose
I love you in each second I find the time
I wonder what it's like to be the apple of your eye
Sparkles shine when I remember you're alive
It's a m...
What is this swirling vortex in my chest?
It swells and swallows my regrets.
Feelings of painful learning, permanent.
I tore down my walls.
I sang every fear and insecurity out of me.
No one's listening,
I'm not learning.
Hypothesize how my heart grew to this size-
Despite the years of missed feedings.
Even though I felt the cover receding,
There was no human to comfort my needing.
I still wonder why you don't love me like they do.
Every evening spent beside you,
Except maybe two..
I drove home in a fury.
Replay the screaming and how you shut the door on me.
Never even asked if I still had feelings.
Discard me for irrational thinking.
I'm always swimming in clouds