I believe God answers our prayer when we pray intently with our hearts. It's powerful and miraculous. We just have to have faith and trust in good completely.
‘Call on me in prayer and I will answer you. I will show you great and mysterious things which you still do not know about.’
Control, Alt, Delete
I wish what we can do on computer can be done in real life too. There are so many things I'd like to Undo and I just want to shut down at the moment.
Often, easier said than done.
When it is your time to forgive, it is actually harder to do when someone really hurt you so deeply. I usually, give advices to my friends when they ask for it. They usually ask for advice about forgiveness. Those advices that I gave them are actually hard to apply on my own situation.
Someone hurt me so deeply this past few days. That person is the most important one in my life. Although this wasn't the first time he did this, but the repeatedly inflicted pain in my heart everytime he hurts me, digged a deep hole in my heart and now I must say it is so difficult to heal.
I tried to act normal, tried to forget it. ...
I don't know what to feel anymore.
I kept asking myself when was the last time I really felt happy?
I can't remember.
I miss being happy.
I miss the feeling of experiencing happiness in my life.
Why is happiness so rare at the moment.
I can have fun for few hours but after that I feel empty again.
Something is missing.
And that is true happiness.
I thought I was happy but then I realized I was just pretending to be.
When will I really be happy?
The moon has gone down
I know you're still awake
This heart I've found
I didn't intend to break
Apology is Futility
Now Destiny is not a friend
Because I've seen the world
from down there
and it wasn't a pretty side
Now the circle is turning
Are you armed for a fight?
I wanna be your fire woman
I'll water down your desires
'Cause I know this Love is a killer
I wanna put out your fire
Did you come for danger?
You gave me love for pain
Now you're much more than a stranger
I wanna give you love but all I have is rain.
When all else fails, would you be there to love me?
would you be there to see right through me?
I love you even if you always take me for granted. Even if you keep on hurting me all the time.
I still see the beauty in you despite the flaws you've shown me.
I'd still choose you over and over again even if there's so many other options.
I hope one day, you will realize my worth.
I often wondered if you really love me.
You always say you do but that don't coincide with the things that you do.
I still love you.
I really do.
Someday you're gonna realize.
One day, you'll see this through my eyes.
By then, I won't even be there.
I'll be happy somewhere even if I can't.
I know you don't really see my worth.
You think you're the last guy on earth.
Well I've got news for you, I know I'm not that strong but it won't take long.
Won't take long.
Right now, I know you can tell.
I'm down and I'm not doing well.
But one day these tears, they will all run dry.
I won't have to cry.
Someday, someone's gonna love me the way I wanted you to need me.
Someday, someone's gonna take your place.
One day, I'll forget about you.
I won't even miss you.
The time where I can be free.
Every time I close my eyes, I find inner peace.
The only moment I can be at ease.
Sleep gives me comfort.
Gives me relaxation.
For when I sleep, the pain and hurt goes away temporarily.
It all goes away, only when I sleep.
I want to sleep forever.
Time check: 2:22 a.m.
I thought today will be better.
But everything is still gloomy like this night.
As I rest my tired body, exhausted mind and breaking heart, at the back of my consciousness I hope things will get better.
I am still in pain and hurt.
Wanting to cry it all out but my eyes probably had probably cried enough as there's no more tears to fall.
I do not know what to feel anymore.
Is this the end of forever?
Should I conclude that there's really no happy ever after?
I don't know.
I can't think anymore.
I looked at him while he's asleep.
As his mind swims through the oceans of dreams.
I tried holding back the tears but they all flowed down my eyes like the water falls.
As I stare, I felt pain in my heart like a knife stabbing every part of it.
Every glance, I'm starting to see a different person. He's becoming more like a stranger to me now. I do not know him any longer.
I feel like he is not the man that I vowed my "I do" with.
How did this happen? That the person you thought you knew suddenly became a stranger.
Sorry if I am writing depressing stuff. This is the only place where I can vent and let it all out.
I can write all the emotions that I feel at the moment. Emotions that not my family nor my friends will ever understand and I know you will.
So bear with me. Cry with me or even drop me some encouragement.
I badly need it at the moment.
It's past midnight.
I should be dreaming now.
But my mind is still wide awake.
Confused how love can be this difficult.
I didn't know.
Sometimes I wish I could turn back the time to day before I met him and just skip all these that I am now regretting.
For so many months now I have been questioning myself if I am still happy. Asking myself when was the last time I really felt the love.
I feel like the only choice that I have is to let it all go. My mind keeps telling me that everyday. But my heart wants to stay.
Waiting that someday he will realize the effort, love and most importantly my life that I have dedicated to him.
When will he realize?
Im hoping ...
Never hurt the people who "love" you a lot. They won't "hurt" you back but they will probably have no choice but to "leave" you forever.
If I could change the way I live my life again, I wouldnt change a single thing. 'cause if I change my world into another place. I wouldn't see your smiling face.
Thank you so much for the warm welcome. One thing I really admire about this app is people here have hearts. I've never encountered an app like this before that there are people who actually care about someone despite being strangers.
That's why I came back writing here. I feel the sincerety of the people. Real people. Reading thoughts. Sharing emotions. Whether you're happy or sad. People here will reach out.
Thank you all beautiful people of Lettrs. To the staff and CEO, you guys are brilliantly genius for this.
You have my utmost respect.
Hello Lettrs family,
I am here in the park. Sitting on a bench. With my cigarette.
Listening to music.
Tears falling down my eyes.
Thinking about how funny that the people that says they love us, are also the ones that hurts us the most. The people that makes us strong are also the same people that makes us weak.
The one that mends your heart is also that one who always breaks it.
Isn't it ironic?
It's been awhile. This app changed so much. Just like my life. So much has changed. Ive missed writing here and seeing other people's writing as well.
I now live in Singapore. Living a very different life. Some of you may have known a little details about me.
Some of you knew that I am a musician.
But now life became different.
I left the lime light.
Decided to live my life out of the spotlight.
Living here in Singapore for 9 months now. All good.
I missed you Lettrs. Seriously.
Last year I met someone that made my life complete.
Today he proposed to me and I said yes!
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.
Set me free, leave me be.
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation...
Can you believe it?
Just a week ago I was feeling empty and incomplete
But now I'm starting to see the light.
Feeling better now than a week ago.
Little by little everything will fall back into place.
I'd like to thank everyone who talked to me last night and to those who became my new found friends, thank you!
I'm really glad that there are people who are still concerned of somebody even if I am a complete stranger to you all.
You all barely know me but some people here helped me see the light in the darkness.
I'm still trying to move on from a very devastating heart break but I feel better because of you all.
Thank you Lettrs users esp. To those who showed concern.
May the force be with you all.
All is well!