|I am from california. I love french fries and pizza.|
only some would understand
i feel like this body is not mine
like someone owns it
the scariest and sadist thing
is asking for it back
if they did though, will it be clean?
answer is no
it will till have its tear when it was rip from my soul
How can you expect for me not to feel this way?
Do you honestly believe i dont have feelings ?
Why do you belittle me?
It you hate my tears and silence , why dont you leave me alone?
You laugh when i cry
You get annoyed when i talk
If you are not here for me when am at my worst
I dont want you around when am at my best.
Dreams fade away
Loud voices turn to whispers
Take me back to the begining
I will remember this time
I will wonder in the dark
I am not scared
For i have god in my heart
The light is my weapon
I can’t decide
A million kisses a can never match up to yours
When i am with you i can never decide if it's hot or cold. It all at once and i feel alive to the max
I can breath and suffocated that the same time
I don't know if i am walking or floating, i follow your existence
I can’t decide if i am seeing or dreaming, my view is set on you
Give me attention
Don't give up on me
Please stay with me
Things i say all the time to myself, scared to tell you alone, please don't laugh at me.
I love you .
You are the person i chose to care , and i miss you
I just want to live in our planet, its beautiful with a warm comfort glow
With you there , i can smile without permission and laugh without reason. Love without recistion and look without fear . you make me feel soft and smooth, i can walk without seeing. And touch without alarming you
I don't want to run or hide, with you i want to notice, and only see you my love
I am torn between love and old love .
When i was a kid, i promised my self i would go back to my home
The place i grew up where i thought i would never forget the place i would always be forever
Now am not so sure anymore
I fell in love, with a man . who is everything. I prayed for
Someone i thought never exsisted for me in earth .
I now i would be breaking the promise i made to that little girl
If she were here , she would have cried
And she has
She so sad and wishes that she could change that fact
She stuck there without new memories .
And it hurts that it's only old memories and not new
That it may never be new .
The time there is now over .
Its been a long time since i been here, but am back with more to share.
May everyone have a great day .
I love him
He is the only guy that has not hurt me
He is generous, kind, and wonderful
He never took advantage of me
He is my friend since middle school
And i never thought we would be more until now.
I love him for who he is
The way he talks about the things he loves
And the way he rambles about he favorite shows.
The way he talks to me like its only us
Sometimes i daydream about us together
Laying down on the bed of a truck and watching the moon and stars together while music is playing.
Talking about anything
Making out underneath the covers of blankets
Its all i wish for
For us to share a piece of our soul together
I feel like i dont have to hide my true self with him
I just want to say happy new year! I know poeple would think 2017 was a bad or good year but that doesn't matter no more becuase when it hits midnight , 2017 is part of history and 2018 is now. I hope this 2018 is bigger and better for everyone.
Enjoy the last hours of 2017.
My personal demon
"Stop what?" She smirked, twirling around me until she was directly In front of me.
With tears escaping my eyes i screamed "stop haunting me!" I clutched my head with my hands,fingers digging into my scalp.
She only then smiled at me and began "remember when he-"
"Shut up!" I cut het off
She suddenly grabbed my hands and whsipered in my ear
"No matter where you go, no matter what you are doing"
Her hand was now at my neck and with her fingers she turned my head , our eyes connecting.
" i will always haunt you"
With that she let me go and twirled around the room until she finally fell back into the darkness leaving me wi...
the minute i saw him. i stared and said to myself “ wow”
the hours i spend him. i looked into his eyes and said to myself “ what’s happening to my heart?”
the moment he showed me his flaws. i gave a kind smile and said to myself “perfect”
the second i realized that i was in love with him. i looked away and said to myself “ fuck”
the years that i have know him. i remember the memories we had and said to myself “why?”
the year he disappeared from my life. i closed my crying eyes, gasped at the feeling of my heart and love being ripped out of my chest and said to myself “ the pain….its to strong”
I came up with a writing prompt.
Describe each color with an item in rainbow order.
My favorite book (even though I Cant really pick one) is Hush Hush by Rebecca Fitzpatrick.
This is the first book that I fell deeply in love with and after reading the first book I was thirsty for more.
So I waited for my allowance (I was 14 at the time) and i bought the second book ( Crescendo) and again I wasn't disappointed.
The first book I fell so in love with i would stay up late at 2 or 3 in the morning with a flashlight.I would have a tiny radio play music as I read my favorite parts in the book.
And I remember those moments that I spent reading that book.
That book is the reason I trulying love to read after reading that book I started to go to Barnes and noble (a book store...
This is me. The other me
I have finally realized that I am not happy , and what I mean is that I finally stopped lying to myself after all these years
Its scary . am young and stupid I have finally realized that I have become what I dreaded all my life. A wreck . a mess.an imperfection , well I don't mind that last one but still am not happy. And i think to my self that I am too young to be depressed and unhappy
Honestly I think that I need to start new life.
Because this one is mess up beyond repair
I hope that this path will help me mentally and physically.
When i was kid , i feared death. Death was my demon, the monster that is under my bed, my worst enemy. But that was long ago, i have see the evil crawls and walks the streets i have been ruined by the worst feelings and events in life,i have been told that no ones perfect, yes but who would want someone with scars , who would want someone that was broken? and now i no longer fear death, i welcome it.
I welcome death .
I welcome it with open arms, it’s my best friend .
For the ones that are giving up or think they are not strong enough to continue life
Be the master of your own destiny
May you grow strong like the trunk of a tree
Let the mind and heart join forces and conquer life
Because your life is your kingdom, and without you claiming the throne. It will get out of control.
Thats all I want
I am a bird in a cage
Begging for freedom
Dreaming about then flight in the sky
The sun in my face
The wind passing by me
My fate in front of me
I am a tiger
Roaring, demanding freedom
Dreaming about the run in the wild
The fire in my eyes
The colors blurry around me
My fate in front of me
I am a wolf
Growling in the name of freedom dreaming about the moon
The howls escape my mouth
The trees surround me
My fate in front of me
I am the bird, tiger, and the wolf
Begging, roaring, demanding, growling for freedom
Dreaming about flying, running, and the moonlight
I can be brave, fierce and loud
I will never forget where I come from
So when I escape and free
I know wher...
I hope everyone's having a good new year.
I hope everyone will achieve their goals this year.
Be happier than 2016.
Have fun than 2016.
Go out more
And just be you. And love yourself
Have a great day everyone and may all your dreams come true!
I am someone who has many thoughts and questions...
But has not spoken them..
Has loved so many but been loved by little
Who has smiled at odd times
But frowned more than can count
Has many stab wounds on her back
Now has little trust in anyone
Your eyes to be the witness
For a soul to explore
This day mat never agian exsists
May these moments be forever more
Let the sun and the stars fall
Shower by the rain and Sunrays
May love and happiness conquer all
Forget sins, remember the preys
This is the only life you got
Live a life that is unique
Memories shouldn't be forgot
Later on life is an antique
hi guys! i am Friday!
sometimes i can be chill, you know like relax on the couch watch television and eat popcorn.
but when someone brings the party (mostly Saturday does) i turn the music up just like i raise my cups. i always have the time of my life.ha, it is the time of my life. my life is when the week is almost done, when everybody relax,having a good time.
my life should be the best time of everyone's life. have fun with my life til next week come. enjoy every minute . my life should be a good time.
Rain of tears
May my first tears fall
Shattering like crystals
Causes were obstacles
I stand proud and tall
May my second tears crash
Soft as flake
So much to brake
Time goes in a flash
May my final tears be done
I haven't cried in ages
Life turning into pages
Raining tears wasn't fun
don't tell me when she takes her last breath
don't tell me when he leaves to the spirit world
for sake of my heart, do not tell me
don't tell me when she leaves for good
don't tell me when he says his last words
for the sake of my heart,do not tell me
don't tell me she smiled or laughed
don't tell me he made a joke..
for the sake of my heart do not tell me
don't..tell ..me they retold old memories together
don't tell ..me they asked for me
for the sake of my heart do not tell me
feeling alone is like a empty room. a room that is just four dull walls and a light bulb above. there is nothing to entertain you,keep you company. nobody has check in to see if your alive or dead. minutes or hours maybe days and not a sound or another soul to talk to you. see pictures of memories hanging from the ceiling then slowly crumble into dust and disappear. sometimes you can hear loved ones voices in your head but fade as soon as you realize where are they?
what happened to them?
why haven't they comes and see you?
soon you feel like you don't matter, you aren't worthy of anyone's time. sooner or later you will be saying the sentence no one wants to hear themselves say...
blood dripping from its jaw...
its eyes with a crimson glow...
fingernails sharp as its fangs...
skin cold like death...
i am going to dance like am the only one in the world,
sing like i am the only voice ,
laugh like a hynea,
cry like i am emptying hurt from my heart,
scream like my life depended on it,
get mad like a fire spreading over a forest,
run like the wind in front of me ,
twirl like a tornado,
jump like a kangaroo,
live life like a boss.
if i gave you my heart, would it be crush? if there was another would you be in a rush? if i were to disappear from this World, would you want to forget me ? if i Were A ghost, Would you Want me to leave you be? I will wait for you, if you share the same feelings too...
Oh how much i miss it there
I miss the warm on my face,
The wind blowing passed my body...
The smell of the ocean filling my nostrils....
The grass tickling my feet...
Trees towering over me..
When will my torture end
Me being so far away...
I miss california.
"california dreamin" -Beach boys