Momma I'll never be able to express in words how much you mean to us.. You've given us life,laughter and learning.. Life with your eyes have been a pure blessing.. From the songs we've song to the nights we've stayed up to see the sun loving you has always brung about a new day.. As your son on this day I gave thanks and praise to the mother that carried you and the father that gave you LIFE...
"You count the hours you could have spent with your mother. It's a lifetime in itself."
- Mitch Albom
Enough said, nothing but truth in this one.
Guage the intensity of storm well,
Prepare yourself for a deep cramp,
Clean your armor and Sharpen your axe.
Stand tall and keep thou abreast.
It's ok to have teary eyes, wounded sides
Dust your knees, Pull up the sleeves.
Know your foes and know your camaraderie
Self awakening is the ultimate key
Bed and blood both are relevant
Love and vacate both are important
When heaven and hell both exists
Why to arrange one sided see
Strength in the thoughts, warm in the speech
A strong woman is a bundle of God and a beast.
Fortune favors the brave.
And she was bravest of all,
fought the wars for her beliefs.
Won the honor of dignity.
Worn her integrity like a badge.
I have so many conflicting emotions soaring through my body like a whirlwind of fire and ice combined. Fiercely hot one minute than cold with exasperated indifference the next.
I can’t help but feel even as you laid on your bed of death you took one last lunge to lash out at me in an attempt to cause mortal wounds irreparable by actively allowing and encouraging that piece of shit gutter garbage you delegated at our family spokesperson to speak to my children, your grandchildren, in such a manner that would forever put you and him under a cloud of scrutiny and disgust beyond anything they ever knew beforehand.
To think you had the audacity as a mother t...
Don’t blame me for my darkness,
blame your lust,
your craving of perfection.
Darkness lies within my eyes,
within my hair,
within my soul,
and it will remain there...
It makes me remember,
That my skin has the color of my land
Land bathed with blood
Blood from my brothers and sisters
children of the corn,
children of Tlaloc,
by the wishes of lustful, unmerciful men
It makes my chest explode,
pieces of my heart scattered all over the place
I feel the rage of those emerald volcanoes
who couldn’t protect their people
In my mouth, the spanish tongue
Neruda and his inmortal verses
García Marquez speaks to me
I'm always scared to leave my mother alone with the monster upstairs. But she always told me she can handle him and I should get on with my life and not worry. How can I? I get scary calls at night of her asking for help but I'm on the other side of the earth. How can I go on with my life if I'll always have to worry about the monster upstairs who I use to call my father...
Ye mat puchho ki kaisi aurat hun,
Karoge yaad ki aisi aurat hun 😎🤘
Shhh..chupke se girau ye dard k ansoo,
Phir bhi hansti rahu ki aisi aurat hu
Bar bar zindagi jise neeche giraane mein juti ho,
Phir bhi har bar khadi ho jau ki aisi aurat hu,
Jiske paas hain sabke raaz, jisse sab karte mann ki baat,
Par khud na kabhi bolu khud k halaat ki aisi aurat hu,
Jiske aane se aaye bahaar, jiske jaane se jaaye bahaar
Jo vo jaane ki khud hai bahaar par anjaan rahe ki aisi aurat hu,
Jiski palko mein anginat sapne aur chamak hai ghazab ki ankho mein,
Phir bhi hotho se chhupa jaye dard ki aisi aurat hun,
Chaal dekhi tumne, nain dekhe tumne, naksh dekhe,
Jo dil bhi hatheli pe dikha du rakh ke ki aisi...
It’s said that in winter people with dark brown eyes are more depressed
My mom hears this and laughs
As she laughs she looks at me and asks Brittany do you like being depressed?
I want to say yes mom I do like to feel like dying every single day
The feeling of being worthless and unlovable is the best feeling in the world
The idea of going out and interacting makes me itch and want to take my skin off and cry all at the same time
Yes that is the feeling I want to feel
It excites me
Knowing that if I did leave I wouldn’t be missed
Now that one is my favorite
Knowing that you don’t care enough to actually take the time out and see if your daughter is okay
Wishing you would let me jump into ...
1. the hair on her legs, they sneer. she does not break.
2. the stain when she bleeds through her jeans; they laugh. she does not break.
3. the snotty drip in their half moon smiles as they circle her like wolves circling prey. run from us, they snarl, but they don’t let her.
4. the underwear he discards to climb up on top of him to make his claim, no, he yells, but he does not listen. he did not know until now that this is what breaking feels like.
5. the laughter. you should have enjoyed it.
6. the disbelief. are you sure you said no? you slut, what were you wearing?
7. the outrage. always, the outrage. we will not break.
i am proud of my flesh, the sca...
You'll only value her when you see her suffering,
I'll tell you why!
I never dreamt of losing her untill the day I saw her close to death,
Once was enough for me to know her worth,
That was the moment i realized the actual meaning of this life given to me by this woman i call my 'Mother'
~ Goodbye ~
Perhaps through your hatred I learned the love and through your actions I learned how not to act. May you Rest In Peace knowing you never had the power to break me and you made me stronger and more resilient than most, the shade you threw at me only provided my light to appear brighter and my color to look more vibrant against the hue of your perpetual darkness. Thank you for the special effects.
To my beautiful daughters-
Lessons I hope to pass to them:
• Travel light through life. Keep only what you need.
• It’s okay to cry when you’re hurt. It’s also okay to smash (some) things; but, wash your face, clean your mess & get up off the floor when you’re done. You don’t belong down there.
• If you’re going to cuss, be clever. If you’re going to cuss in public, think again.
• Just because you can, doesn’t mean you should.
• 5-second rule. It’s just dirt. There are worse things in a fast food cheeseburger.
• You’re a woman, you don’t NEED a man- but it’s ok to want the right one.
• Happiness is not a permanent state, it takes intentional effort everyday.
• Pain is inevitable, but sufferi...
In an unforgettable childhood,
When the cream of bitterness I had
Where had you been my Mom?
As a growing child,
Of my basic needs're withheld,
When with an empty stomach did loiter
Where had you been my Mom?
As every Mom has a tale to say
Of a pain and ten months'carriage
But no Mom ever reveals
That she put someone to life long suffer.
She is mysterious. Her ways are timeless, her soul ancient. Her eyes flicker with love, her embrace complete with understanding. Timeless and ancient...mysterious.
I don’t need to understand her.
She is always...her.
You have always been my biggest supporter and best friend. You have taught me many things about life and a lot more about the flexibility that is needed to survive it. You have made me cry and upset me beyond what I thought was remotely possible. You have also made me laugh and graced me with your musical talents.
It is with the greatest sorrow that I see you now, so weak and tired. Pained by the tumors that have consumed your body, you now have to fight for your life. I hate that I’m not able to be there for you or fix this with a simple hug and an “I’m sorry”. I want to scream to world for you that is isn’t fair or trade places with you so that you can continue to touch the live...
I cannot bring back all the parts that have been broken from your heart for me, mama.
I cannot write your story again and give you the life you deserve
I cannot open the doors of heaven to rain and purify your thirst for a better life
I cannot plant roses in the whole universe to make you realize that all the flowers of the universe are not in your beauty.
I cannot cry all those frozen seas in your eyes, although I have tried repeatedly and have not been able to.
I cannot close that void of the pain left by my brother's death in your chest.
I cannot save you though I have done it millions of times in my heart
I cannot make you full of happiness instead of sadness
I cannot do all this and...
I still think of you.
I still yearn for you.
I still hold so much respect & love for you in my heart.
Adek rindu sangat dekat mama.
Semoga mama tenang di sana, mama.
In the light
Of her own darkness
And that of the night's
The restless rain
Belittling her strength
As do they
Who sit in judgment
Because she exists
So she alone
Must come to terms
With their poured out torment
Without letting it
Define her. JD
#CrescentMoon #PouredOut #RestlessRain #ChallengesWomenFace
Funny as it may sound, but buying cigarettes can teach you some lessons. No, I'm not talking about cancer or how tobacco can make you go blind. I'm talking about retrospection while talking to the woman who owns the convenience store where you buy your poison from.
I realised it isn't the tobacco I'm addicted to because I still had a few cigarettes left when I last visited the store. It's the conversation I have with her that's my poison.