There is a bitter taste in my mouth
The one I have after biting my words off.
The one I taste after putting away my emotions. I'm in pain. Just not visible on my face.
I hear a constant screeching of wheels stuck in mudroad. Trying to get escape the never ending ever sinking feeling. The feeling of pain undescribable.
My nose is a house of pungent smell. Of slow rotting of life. Of eventual death. Of a callous murder done by me. Of me. I'm in pain. The mute pain.
In broad daylight when the sun shines bright. My eyes, hurt. They are used to perpetual darkness of closed dusty rooms. Of cobwebs and 3 day old coffee. My eyes is accustomed to a mess and loneliness. The kind that I can nev...
We lose people - to life, to someone else, to time, to different circumstances. People start believing that time shall heal us.
Does it really?
Does the void ever disappear?
Day after day,
With you not around me.
I know an year has passed,
And time should have filled up that vacant space,
With memories anew.
But the ache remains the same,
In no way lessened.
I wake up with the thought of your absence,
Piercing my skin like needles.
My heart with spokes of lies.
And it lingers on all day.
I laugh and I always long for you to see me like this,
See me trying too hard to blend in,
To justify what people around me are thinking,
That I have moved on.
In these toughest junctures, all I have is you!
The one who keeps exciting me to do my best and never think about what the others do for us!
He is been there to check on me to have the seasoning food I have had in all my life!
"Three years ago he gave his word to her. Oh how many things have changed since then.
As he pulls up on the driveway, she gets ready for a difficult conversation. She sits down in the chair and waits for him to walk in. I guess she always knew about this talk, may be she must have anticipated the whole thing right from the beginning. No matter what, but thi time she ain't gonna break down. She has been through a lot lately just by thinking about how bad things could turn out. And now when the time is here, when the special bond she had with him was coming to an end. The end she was always afraid of and the End the Woke her up crying many midnight's. It is the End! Oh yeah, it is a...
They say the eyes are the windows to your
soul.so if you can look into each others and
express words not spoken, why is this and more
that has awoken. A moment past and
whispers that have asked why? The journey
of separate paths that parallel but with
occasional whole only to lead to divided halves
so forth the story goes. Staring into panes of
metaphorical glass the only thing to ask, why
must this be a task? Understanding the why
and the time that cannot bend may only lend
to tears unshed. Putting on a mask so perhaps
the pains that show a soul will be shrouded
and the other may not know.
You say you're falling in love with me
and that's why you need to walk away now
before I break your heart into two.
Of course, I'll break your heart. I'm an extrovert.
That's what we're famous for doing.
it worries you that I can talk to anyone and make them smile so wide, the ends of their lips have no choice but to touch the wrinkles around their eyes.
It makes you insecure.
You need to walk away, despite knowing that if you leave
my stories will leave me too.
You'll say bye and I'll just open my mouth to try to ask you to stay and you'll hear all my stories shattering inside my chest,
and then as I cry, it'll leave me.
I'll try to find my stories again.
I'll look for it in the los...
"sing to me
like I am your moon
i'll howl into the wilderness because you are
who i miss"
you wrap your hands around my body ,
and I bury my face in your chest.
there's Led Zep playing in the speakers
or Cigarettes After Sex,
because you tell me you can sleep to any kind of music.
we've been doing this since a year
and Google tells me,
it takes only sixty six days to form a habit
and we've done it way longer than that.
i'm terrified of waking up alone,
and so when I wake up in the morning, next to you,
I whisper a 'I love you' in your ear,
not caring if you're still sleeping and can't hear me,
it's a habit.
but we have other habits too,
you sleep on the left side,
i sleep without pants,
and we don't wake up in the middle of the night to pee.
and i know how ...
مجھے مرنے کا کہتے ہو۔
خود مر کیوں نہیں جاتے۔
مجھے چھوڑنے کا کہتے ہو۔
خود چلے کیوں نہیں جاتے۔
مشورہ دیتے ہو خود کو بھول جانے کا۔
یہ خود اپنے اوپر ہی کیوں نہیں آزماتے۔
ٹوٹ جانے کا کہتے ہو مجھے۔
خود نرم کیوں نہیں ہوتے۔
درد دیتے ہو مجھے جام بھر بھر کے۔
ساقی تم اپنی پیاس کیوں نہیں بھجاتے۔
Mujhy marnay ka kehty ho.
Khud marr kyun nhi jaty.
Mujhy chor deny ka kehty ho.
Khud chaly kyun nhi jaty.
Maswara dety ho khud ko bhol jany ka.
Ya khud apny uper he kyun nhi azmaty.
Tut jany ka kehty ho mujhy.
Khud naram kyun nhi ho jaty.
Dard dety ho mujhy jam bhr bhr kr.
Saqi tum apni pyas kyun nhi bhujty.
عجب لہجہ ہے اس کی گفتگو کا۔
غزل جیسی زباں وہ بولتا ہے۔
Ajab lehja ha us ke guftagu ka.
Gazal jesi zuban wo bolta ha.
'Tomorrow I'm working.. dunno wen I'll be back from office.. will see if timings match.. thanks for offering though.. will let u kno"
Brain: uhhh... Why would you do that!?
Heart: You wanted this so badly... Why would you ruin it?
Me: Leave me be!
Brain: you need to spill the beans to someone...
Heart: better him than anyone else... You trust him so much, and he promised he will come around, this shows his love...
Me: *clenching teeth* I don't want to be a charity case..
Brain: you're not ok! You need a counsellor..
Heart: you're not ok! You need a loved one like him..
Me: *yawns* I'm shutting myself out. *Dozes off to sleep*
(After a sudden and swift departure a week ago, he finally sent me an email)
I called you twice and didnt get an answer. I'm really sorry, im not doing well at all. Ive been trying to stay asleep as much as possiblly can. I know I was wrong for leaving like I did. Im sincerely sorry. In my head when I made the decision to go I had two things playing on my mind. I felt like such a drag for you. I felt like ever since I became a part of your life all I did was cause you problems and pain. From complicating work life for you to depending on you for a roof over my head, food to eat, cigarettes, and everything else needed to live. My self esteem was so low I couldnt even have sex the way...
A veces me es muy fácil gritar "¡Te amo!", en otras ocasiones me cuesta mucho decir al menos un te quiero.
Mi corazón es complicado y emotivo, no siempre logro comprender sus deseos.
Te veo y no lo creo, ¿cómo es posible que me ames todo este tiempo? El amor me aterra, a sobre manera. Nunca me ha gustado entregarme completamente porque al final las cosas no son como me gustarían... es lo malo de ser controlador.
¿Qué quieres de mí? ¿Preferirías que fuera dócil y te siguiera ciegamente?
Tengo varias noches sin dormir, por más que lo intento, no puedo pegar ojo hasta las 7am. Luego llegas y me dices dormilona porque me levanto a las 12.
Hay cosas que me dan miedo decir, hay cosas que sien...
Empowerment is realizing at your own pace that you have the power to choose a different outcome in your life and understanding that no matter what circumstances you find yourself in at the moment, things do not have to remain the same. @PLECCA
Se esperan, pacientemente. Sienten ese fuego que les quema a ambos.
Sucederán. Un día, una noche, alguna vez. Los amores como el de ellos no pueden quedarse así. Viviendo en puntos suspensivos. Deseando que sean posibles.
Sucederán. En algún momento dejarán atrás esa pausa y correrán a desvestirse de las ganas, de la espera.
Sucederán. Pero por lo pronto, pacientemente, se esperan.
Te veía llegar cada día por la mañana.
Ya había tomado como costumbre sentarme a esperar tu llegada.
Observar como tus caderas danzaban con cada paso que dabas.
Ver tu piel canela por la mañana, a mí me gustaba.
Desde lejos y todos los días, te admiraba. No te percatabas.
Y sentía una ansiedad terrible cuando en ocasiones demorabas.
No sé porqué pero tu llegada siempre me tranquilizaba.
- Por si acaso me lees.
Dearest Healing Panda,
You know how the heart or the self misses the things you can't get anymore. Well I miss your healing hugs. I know I rarely get to see you back then, but I always waited till you came back.. I waited through all the hard times in my life because I know I can depend on your hugs. The kind of hug you gave me meant so much to me back then, even though probably to you its just a plain hug your gf moment. Your hug is what puts me back together again after unraveling and getting hurt in the world. I know I may have never mentioned this, thanks to my secretive nature...but that's what I love about you the most. I dont need your long lectures of what I did wrong, or lectures o...
I believe in me
And in my love for you
It is true
So is you !
But i know
True love is
to see loved ones happy
So i understand
If you want to walk away
in pursuit of your
All i do is pray
for my happiness
that is you
to walk back in
There is only one person .
..To Whom we call ,chat or meet ...
We never use such word like " aur batao"...........(and say).......
Because we have lot to talk and still remain a lot to talk even after calling ,meeting & chatting.......