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November 18, 2018
East Windsor, United States

We hardly speak
And I miss you.
It’s like I can’t do
Without you.
It’s so hard for me to say
I need you.
It’s so hard for me
To admit that
But I do.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

STAN LEE
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November 18, 2018
Princeton, United States

There’s a darkness come over me.
I don’t know who I am.
Life happens and I can’t feel
Anything.
Scenes play out in my life
And I’m letting you go
Without a fight.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

STAN LEE
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November 18, 2018
Princeton, United States

There’s a darkness come over you
That I never saw before.
The things you say so uncaringly
Make me bleed as they cut within.
Who are you?
Maybe I never knew you.
I thought love joined us
But hearts can be fickle
They let us know
We are alone in this life.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

STAN LEE
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November 17, 2018
East Windsor, United States

Can we ever empathize
With each other?
I don’t know.
For if you cut yourself,
And bleed, can I really feel
That pain?
Only if I truly feel you.
Otherwise I will say I understand
And not feel your pain,
But
That’s not who I am.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

STAN LEE
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November 16, 2018
East Windsor, United States

My miserable life
Didn’t start out this way,
I had a childhood,
I had a life.
I ask myself
When did that change?
We travel on a high wire
In this life
Never knowing if we’re
Hanging on
Until we fall.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

STAN LEE
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November 15, 2018
East Windsor, United States

Snow reminds me
Of when I used to be a child
Full of joy and hope.
Slipping and sliding in it’s
Delicious embrace;
The cold.
Anticipation of Santa
Of family.
Laughter and fun.
Candy canes
And ribbon candy
Hot cocoa with whipped creme and snowmen.
How I wish
I could go there again!

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

STAN LEE
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November 15, 2018
 

As I look out our window today
I see snow, so white, covering up
Familiar places, making them look
So new.  

It’s already been a year
Since you’ve been gone.
How final that day
You went away.

I kept your clothes
Like any day
You’d come marching in,
Always quiet, like you used to.

Window pain
As I look out this window pane.
Seeing seasons change
Watching the same scenes
Thinking how different they seemed
When you were here.
I’m struggling...
Struggling, without you.

As I look out the window today
I see snow so white
Covering up familiar places,
Making them look so new.

It’s already been three years
You’ve been gone.
Still keep your clothes
In my closet.
Hoping you’ll marc...

STAN LEE
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November 12, 2018
 

A memory.
Noise.
Children running, children
Screaming, cavorting, encased
By a tall wire fence.
I am alone as I look at the black asphalt ground.
The noise makes me dizzy, surreal, as if I am not there;
I am not.
I wonder why I cannot play.
I wonder why nothing is funny.
Suddenly, a shrieking whistle,
Everyone stands silent and straight at attention.
The nun in her black habit and black heart, sounds the whistle yet again.
We scurry quietly to formation and start our decent back to hell.
Recess is over.

         An excerpt from my life
         As a child.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

MADE WITH LOVE
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November 4, 2018
East Windsor, United States

I’ll always be a New York girl.
Can’t get away from that,
Born and raised.
I can’t be a honky tonk girl
Even if I’d like
Cause I’m a New York girl.
Don’t believe in anyone,
Nothing for nothing
Leaves nothing....
I’m from New York.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

COZY FALL
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November 3, 2018
East Windsor, United States

He says he loves me.
But you know
That don’t mean shit.
When it comes down to it
What matters is if
You are down for me
Or not.
Show up for me baby.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

COZY FALL
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November 2, 2018
East Windsor, United States

I watch your body dry up
And your face consume.
I don’t want to face it.
Your demise.
So I keep my distance
But sometimes
My heart breaks
Thinking how you must feel
So alone
In the process of your death;
Like no one cares.
Like, how could I leave you?
When time is fleeting
I only run away.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

COZY FALL
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November 1, 2018
 

Darkness and I’m walking down
An ill lit street.
The leaves have collected into great mounds on the ground and I hear their crunching as I walk. I can barely see them.
Dawn but the sun has not broken yet and I have a long way to go. I can’t see anyone on my journey lest the morning fog ,yet I feel a presence, following and sometimes beside me. It frightens me but I trudge on.
I see the solitary lights of a car in the distance. He doesn’t see me as he speeds by. I am invisible. I am darkness too.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

COZY FALL
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October 28, 2018
East Windsor, United States

People will use you.
Until you have nothing left.
And will rage at that.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

A Haiku for you.

LET GIRLS LEARN
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October 24, 2018
East Windsor, United States

You can never get back things
That you lost
Or people.
They are gone forever.
And you can try to imitate them
But it will never be the same.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

WHITE CLOCK
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October 23, 2018
East Windsor, United States

Don’t turn my love away.
Don’t make believe
You are asleep
Because this real love
Will never come again.
And you will wander
Looking for it
But never really find it.
It is here.
It is me.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

WHITE CLOCK
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October 20, 2018
East Windsor, United States

I can never say
I don’t care about you.
Cause that would mean
The Feelings I had
Were never true.
True, my ego says
“Say you don’t care. “
“Say you don’t love. “
But inside, I know
It ain’t true.
I love too much
I care too much.
Always have and always will.

Debbie O. Bottled Up Feelings

WHITE CLOCK
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October 14, 2018
Princeton, United States

My tears have dried up.
I have dry eyes that hurt
For I cannot cry.
Why?
All the years, all the storms,
Of this life
Have taken them away.
And I wonder?
Does God really catch
Those tears?
Has he saved them up
In heaven?
For they have been oceans.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

WHITE CLOCK
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October 14, 2018
Princeton, United States

You know what I like
About words?
You know what I like
About poetry?
It never goes out of style.
Words never change.
Feelings never change.
And love remains...
Timeless.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

WHITE CLOCK
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October 13, 2018
East Windsor, United States

I liked it better when you looked
Into my eyes
And were sincere.
I liked it better when love
Wasn’t something
You had to do;
When words and gestures
Would just flow
Without restraints or rules.
When things weren’t forced.
I liked it better when you looked
Into my eyes
And were sincere.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

WHITE CLOCK
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October 11, 2018
 

I would have been content
With little
But you wouldn’t even
Give me that
Was I too hard to love?
Or was love too big a thing
To give?

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

WHITE CLOCK
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October 10, 2018
East Windsor, United States

I like the way you talk
Words all covered up
In honey
So sweet as they go
Down
Down
Down
Even when you break hearts
Those words sound
So sweet
Coming from you
I like the way you talk
A parfait of flavors
For the soul.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

WHITE CLOCK
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October 5, 2018
 

I have no words for you
This time.
There’s so many things
I could say
But I don’t want to
Squander them.
Every time I let the words out,
It costs me something;
And you as the receiver
Of those words,
Can’t perceive them....
Wasted words.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

THE EDISON BULB
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October 5, 2018
East Windsor, United States

I let you go
With heavy heart.
I let u walk away
And wonder how
You Can love someone
And take everything away.
I wonder how
You mean,you love,
When for you
They cease to exist
As if they never were.
Never caring if they will
Eat or sleep
Or weep tonight.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

THE EDISON BULB
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October 2, 2018
East Windsor, United States

Is this how it must be?
Me robbing pictures of you
Living life?
Watching
Always watching on the sidelines
Wanting what you have.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feeling

THE EDISON BULB
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September 25, 2018
East Windsor, United States

If it weren’t for this pen
I would have sunk
Into this mire
Of stagnant ritual
My days of watching
The same scenarios
Unfold before me
And my life
Slipping further and further
Into my goblet of wine
Whining in my wine
Woe is me.
Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

HELLO AUTUMN
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September 23, 2018
Princeton, United States

When you were twenty four
I never saw you.
We wasted the best years
Of our life
In indecisiveness and fights
We wasted all that time
Yet, we still survive.

Debbie O
Bottled Up Feelings

BE KIND
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September 20, 2018
 

Talk to me, don’t part.
We have erred from time to time.
We have both been blind.

A haiku for you.
Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

WHITE CLOCK
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September 15, 2018
East Windsor, United States

Life is to short for me to judge.
If I do wrong will you take away your love?
If you do wrong, will I take away mine?
Life is to short for me to judge.
I just want to love you
Until time says....
Let go.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

NEVER FORGET
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September 9, 2018
East Windsor, United States

We make so many mistakes
Because we are lonely.
Satisfied with so little...
We move on through life
Never knowing
Our true worth.
Never loving ourselves.
When will we turn the mirror
And see the truth?
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You are so beautiful!!!

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

GREAT THINGS
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September 4, 2018
 

Let me escape
With each note
That you play.
Take me to another place
As I sway.
Play...
For the sound
You create with your hands
Brings me to a passion
And I can forget.

Debbie O Bottled Up Feelings

GREAT THINGS
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