|this is my safe place, where I write everything I feel and think about knowing not a single soul knows me.|
And here I am once again terrified that I might become the person I use to be,
I look at the life I'm leaving and it's exactly what I've always wanted but at the same time I feel like everyday I'm at the edge of the Clif...
And it seems like He will be my down fall.
I stood there beside Him, burning in my inside feeling the strong sexual tension between us. I turned and looked at Him hoping He wouldn't notice but He was already looking at Me as I tried to look away He brush His chest against my shoulder turning me into ashes.
I love them, I love them all.
I love seeing then laugh and have fun, I love them seeing them being changed for Good and I love when they share there victories, I love getting to watch them grow to amazing young women and men.
But it hurts to see them fall and to watch them cry and being hurt by life it hurts Me went I can't seem to find the words help them.
They are young and weak and bearly learning how to be themselves and actually embrace it Because it's awesome to be who you are, we are all unique and beautiful!!!
I am talking about You the Youth if this world full of bad choices and mistakes But at the same time it's all beautiful and colorful and there's love and kindness in the air...
I want to lay beside you in your bed and hear your heart beat and I would love to kiss you and lay on your chest and slowly take of your clothes.
I can also be a cold hearted bitch and pretend like if nothing you did hurt Me.
I can stand straight and let anyone tell me whatever they want about me and think about Me and walk out the door like the Queen I am!
I was raised by Kings and
Kings don't cry
Kings don't lose there cool,
Kings are fearless,
Kings are strong,
Kings talk smart,
Kings can fight,
Kings can defeat you with one look,
Kings don't lose!
...And He stop for a few seconds and said just loud enough for Me to hear Him "I wish We could do this every day, We have to do this every day" hearing those words made Me moan and He kissed me right after as He spin me over to come on top and I wrapped my legs around him, I knew that we would definitely do it again tomorrow!
I had a dream where I lived a happy life full of success and riches, but one day I went to visit my inspiration, and when I got there she looked sad and exhausted everything around me was dark and I saw my two younger siblings they didn't look happy for a moment it seem unreal but it wasn't it was then my parents my siblings there were leaving miserable and I knew it was because My father made them live like that so I got mad I scream and yell and he took a stick in sure he was in twisted mind he wanted to kill me...
I woke up and I knew deel deep inside one day I was going to have to Dave my Mother and my siblings from the man my father might become.
Good morning My Love,
Today we turn One year and 9 months together I have to tell you that the day you asked me to be your girlfriend I said yes and since that day forward I didn't plan on looking for anybody else but even tho I knew that it takes a miracle and a lot of work for two people to stay together, and in these months we have argue we have gotten hurt and sad and we both have cried but I really don't care how much it takes for us to make it work because I plan on putting my whole heart and soul into what we have, because I know it wasn't a coincidence for us to meet, we both went through a lot to get to the day we met,
In two months we will be officially Two years together and these...
I don't want to lie to them,
I don't want to go back to the person I use to be,
I don't want to go back to my old ways, But somehow I feel like maybe I already took the wrong turn without even realizing it.
You are the Darkest part of my past,
You are the story I always skip,
You are the person who lied about me the most,
You are the person I can not pronounce the name of,
You are the person I could never forget,
You are the person who stole my smile,
You are the person who ruined my family,
You are all the things I want to forget,
You are my most painful memory,
You are all different people stuck in one whole memory...
You Are The Darkest Part Of My Life.
I really want to kiss you again!
They why that felt was nothing like I ever felt before it was calm yet at the same time wild!
There's days where we are all Love, we just sit and talk for hours you hold my hand and I hold yours, we eat together and laugh and do silly things, there's also days when our love is explosions and passion, those are the days where I look at you and we both want the exact same thing, you kiss me passionately and I embrace you with so much power and Sparks fly everywhere, But there's also days where you hurt my feelings and days where I forget to ask how your doing and how was your day, those are the days where my heart gets weak and sad and we both struggle to fix it, because we both come from homes where our parents weren't the best example and we both struggle with our thoughts that we hav...
Today wasn't the best day for US, you didn't kiss me or even bother to come see me, but I get it you were tired and frustrated, and well I didn't call you or even look back while I was about to leave the building...
So I guess it was our own fault we both have a lot to work on.
I remember the first time you kissed Me,
I remember so clearly how we sat in that Greek bench I was thinking about all the pictures we had just taken not once did it cross my mind that we would kiss that night, as we sat there me leaning against your shoulder I remember just how from one moment to another I was laying in your legs and the moment I looked up your eyes where shut and every half second your face was closer to mine and then Boom we kissed and just like that I was yours forever!
Dear Future Husband,
I only came to say that I am very Happy we have been dating for 1 year and 5 months and 15 days!
I gotta tell you how in love I am with You, I mean you have everything I wasn't looking for but everything I fell in love with, you came in to my life just when I was comfortable being single and reminded me why God made us with the need to need to be in someone's arm and in my case I needed to be in your arms and I am forever great full for that!
It feels like I've been run over horses and right when I think I have the strength to move a muscle I get run over by bulls and when I curse for being beat up in this dirt I find myself drowning in the deepest part of the ocean surrounded by sea monsters with familiar faces.
Being with you is living this song,
Some people long for a life that is simple and planned
Tied with a ribbon
Some people won't sail the sea 'cause they're safer on land
To follow what's written
But I'd follow you to the great unknown
Off to a world we call our own
Hand in my hand and we promised to never let go
We're walking the tightrope
High in the sky
We can see the whole world down below
We're walking the tightrope
Never sure, never know how far we could fall
But it's all an adventure
That comes with a breathtaking view
Walking the tightrope...
Tightrope by Michelle Williams
Why is it so terrifying the thought of him going in one knee and asking Me to marry Him?
Why is it so terrifying the thought of having children of my own?
Why do I want to be alone?
But somehow I need Him.
It was the most painful experience I have ever had, But it turn out to be the best thing it could have happened
You are the Love story I always wanted as a little girl, but became to bitter in my teenage years to believe in.
And out of all Six
Hope is the most bitter!
I remember how it felt sitting in that chair needing to scream and not being able to, I remember how it felt forcing myself to hold my tears and I remember how it felt for two years like if I had a knife stabbed in my heart.
I fell in love with a Man I didn't expect to meet in a season of my life where I wasn't looking for love, I avoided him for months and never did the effort to make the conversation flow But one day out of the blue he invited me to a volleyball game where I was impressed by the way he was playing and the way he didn't look at me weird for being so passionate about wanting to win, and it took three Mondays for him to get stuck in my head and four months later I was surprise to say "Yes" when He asked me to be His girlfriend, and now a year later and almost four months I am more in love then I have ever been and I can't stop thinking when will He asked that big question where I can't wait to say...