|✌ 20; Live the life you love 💕 writes about love&life to the 🌏|
My heart is set on you...nothing can change that now.
Will you trust me with him?
Or will I have to change my way?
I need to help him or at least offer to... he has been there for me...he has been there with me...he has been a true friend.
I know this can end badly if I don’t tread lightly...so I hope you trust me as much as I trust you.
Worrying about him,
We had your work hang today, dinner and then movies. It was awkward at first being in together in a group but by the time it was movies I felt right being by ur side (:
I know...it won’t be easy but let’s just try...
Movies was fun Hahaha I wanted to focus on the movie but we kept staring at each other Hahaha thanks for the jacket (; but now I know why you realllllyyyyy brought it for hahaha
After that we dropped off Brenda and her guy then went to our park... I opened up abit more and I hope you see it as me trusting you more.
There was a moment where we were listening to music and my head was in ur laps and we stared at each other...your adoring eyes on me ...I wonder if y...
Had our date today, went bowling and Ofcourse SD smashed me! Although I got one strike! And then we went to Kmart and walked around as a couple 😊 but I couldn’t hold his hand because he lost a bet with me!!! Hahaha but it was nice.... I like listening to him talk- it may not stay but it is heard. We had a flop moment when he chucked out the receipt but we needed it at the front for them to check haahah had to back to get it!! So cute- then we went to Liverpool Westfield, had lunch! Two burgers a chicken and a haloumi (: he devoured it whilst it took me a good half an hour to finish it (he was patient...had to be ahahah) and then we walked to chemist warehouse to buy stuff!
He thinks that a label magically gave me the security to kiss him with my tongue... so cute hahaha
But baby bear...i willingly gave you my first French kiss because it was my gift to you for compromising ...for choosing to be with me in the way I wanted. For your selfless act -I gave you my lips.
Okay I trust your decision- I trust that you are the bigger person and can protect us both... so the choice you made is the right thing to do.
We spent two hours today as a couple, thank you for buying me ice-cream (I think I’ll be asking this a lot of you hehehe). Had our first kiss as a couple by the creek near my home...I let you in (my mouth) and made out near Jt’s home >< wow hahaha something is clicking in my mind and these experiences will be good for me.
I hope that we make the most of this... I hope that we protect each other well. You are a priority now...and I will fight for you and us.
Liking the you who listens to me,
What have I done to him... what have I done.
Is this right? This is going to be a tough journey... we are so complicated when the plain truth is simple....
At 2am my tears come from hurting you... and you feel nothing.
On the 17th of feb we will never forget our biggest disagreement turning into ... something unexpected.
You’re a little bit happy, I am still numb.
I will never forget -Now we're in it, let's nurture it, protect it and let's make it work- your words...
I trust you, I believe in you and I like you.
From the bottom of my heart,
I am a blank slate...fill me with colour, fill me with light and shades and most of all fill me up until I’m full...
Never felt this way for someone...peaceful and flowly - I hope it lasts...
He’s a difficult person and we don’t exactly agree on everything but if he knows love and knows compromise then let his knowledge and experience carry us as far as it can... I will do my best to fall in love the right way for once. I will do my best to fight the right way for once. I will my best to protect him...
Yesterday we kissed 12/02 it started with the hand and then the arm... and I stopped him...he knows I have insecurities...and so he hugged me and we started all over again.kissing...
Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
you’re all that I want,
So make it come true.
Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I am the happiest,
When I am with you.
The world has shown me how cruel it can be to someone who doesn’t deserve it at all...and I’m afraid that it’s not my job to rectify these signs.
I don’t think I can protect him and love him...and I certainly never imagined myself deserving him.
Can I be his friend? Or will I just hinder the both of us...
I will send good vibes to his happiness because I will never be enough...he deserves better.
To you whom I’m become accustomed to...your face has become one of my favourite faces.
Let me watch you from afar and never give you any hope of us...anymore.
Precious turtle you are
Thank you and goodbye
Just for tonight let my mind run wild...
I feel sad though...I don’t know why
My hopeful heart, and you?
If I love you then I have to do it right. But will you really someone like me?
Will you love me the way I yearned to be loved? I don’t think so.
I apologise in advance at the mess I’ll make;
The one who you held hands with,
Lisa h Vo
Just had a date ...first in 4/5 years and it wasn’t a fairytale it was reality.
We held hands in the cinema and felt myself tingle. Afterwards we talked... he fears commitment that he would have to sacrifice something in order to slot his gf in.
What do I want? I’m fine with anything...I can’t ask for much if I don’t know. If I make a move will he move with me or away from me...
Honestly it makes me confused ...do i allow myself to like this man or should I have him as my friend ?
Ps. He didn’t wait for me to go in ><
Ps. I adore his breathing
The libra in me is rightfully indecisive.
With love and good vibes,
The way you love, hurts the ones you love most. To bare it makes my heart heavy, but I’ll do it for you. And so we can just repeat this nonsense again and again... because I am there for you willingly. So right by you because the only thing you will have to sacrifice is me...always willingly. The ones I love most, I know best. #itsnotmyyear
A storm is coming, let the rain wash away whatever that needs to go and I’ll be there to clean up the damage.
I just hope I really can be there to...
My first crush was a boy in primary school- and all we did was hold hands.
He slipped away from me when we went to highschool and I forgot about him while I searched for myself.
It only has hit me now that he could be everything I have wanted for so long. He is literally my perfect match! He knows my shameful secret, he was someone who I could confide in when I couldn’t with my friends.
So why...did we never come back to where it all started? Why did I not see him as a potential partner? Am I too late now? Will he love me? How do I even come to this conclusion?
I am overwhelmed by this thought and wish I knew if the right thing to do is explore our unknown relationship.
It was coincidence that he was at #sanholo and that I was too.
As I greeted him, he came in for a friendly hug. Then he like a party animal danced until the music faded out- in the middle and up the front whilst I stayed in my circle wanting to come to him in an instant.
As I danced I couldn’t stop looking for him. Couldn’t stop admiring at his coolness. The Gemini has finally come into my life.
At the end, with one hand held onto my best friend in a crowded corridor our faces and our eyes met and we said our heys and byes... and then I did something I have always wanted. To start something. I decided to sing hey baby by Dj Otzi and the crowders corridor filled with his lyrics...
World mental health day is today.
I had a big scare with my close friend who has depression... it came to the point that she was in the emergency ward.
Frantic as I was, I knew my presence would give just a little bit of comfort to her.
I cried so much for you... and you looked at me with lifeless eyes.
I stuck a band-aid on her arm with my name on it to remind her that I am with her all the way. She laughed and smiled and told me I was an annoying friend.
My friend is stubborn and the last thing she will do is go away....I hope she gets through today to live for tomorrow.
Look out for the slightest signs and make sure to help everyone you can.
Be that annoying friend. B...
Had the third dream of my teeth being wobbly and falling out >< all this internal stress and anxiety ):
My internship is coming...and I'm super calm on the outside. But from the inside it's an organised mess. I've got this, lets do this!
Going to relax and chill then get to work!!
I love Marie...
I miss Marie...
I can't wait to see,
My girlfriend has been gone for 4 months now...and I'm starting to appreciate her in a deeper way.
Her non-stop talking.
Her laughter and hugs.
There's something odd about my body for a couple of months now...but I don't feel pain or anything unusually besides it.
I'm going to wait it out and see... and then if it is still like this then in September I will go to the doctors.
I hope it's just by body doing its thing...and nothing more.
Here's to the end of June! I have been busier than normal, and I guess it's because I'm nearly finishing my teaching degreee!!!!
Whilst studying- I had embarked on a life goal of mine and that's to write! I have 3 stories that I hope will be finished in a few years! Going to try with publishing a book and then selling a movie-script. It's going to be really hard I hear...but those words never stopped me becoming a teacher! So why should it stop me now!
Wish me luck!
Enjoy a snippet of this love I am writing about.
We kissed and I exhaled. I turned around and began walking but he didn't follow. Turning around I caught his eyes on me. He is in awe. "What are you doing?" Feeling myself blush as he scanned my body. He's eyes fixated on mine - "remembering this..." My lips pressed together as I extended my hand. he's eyes moved down to my outstretched hand and reached for it. Pulling him in closer, I wrapped myself around his arm. Am I strong enough to love this man?
I have built myself to see the positive in all types of negative situations.
I have learnt to deal with my anger in less than a day.
I am no longer irrational or emotional - have I lost my sense ? Or is this good?
I feel kinda plain.
My friends existence
When the world suddenly means nothing,
When the people around you aren't enough....
And the feelings you have for yourself,
Are tugging and tugging for your fall...
Listen to the other side of the rainbow,
Where we are, where you should be now.
When things are over your head and you have no way out...
Baby there will be always those days.
When you are in a dark place...
If you only knew how much we love you or the bright future awaiting you.
No matter how hard we try, we can't save you...
So Save your self, before we can't reach you.
You who has jet black hair,
You who loves to wear black,
You who loves to eat good food,
You who loves us dea...
I bought a lottery ticket today for the 13th May 2017. The cashier seeing me as such a young girl- felt lucky and asked...what if you win?! How much will you give me?! I stumbled upon my words and told him...if I win I will give you 1?! Million dollars! He laughed in delight and wished me good luck.
I only one the lottery once -it was 20$.
Now I hope to win 20 million! Wish me luck world!
I wish honestly... can't wish for someone to magically fall in love with me... so I wish to win the lottery 3 times just to be sure!
Why money? Because the people around me need it , they deserve it!
It has come to this...where friends view their friends "stories" online to see and hear their happiness- yet in person and in conversation all we here are the bad times from them.
What are friends?
...it should be so much more?
I love my friends enough to conform to the norm...but when it comes to my happiness...I'm going to share it with them through my words.
You can forget and maybe even reason with yourself until its okay for you...but there are things that you wont be able to avoid. Whether its karma or a lesson from the world.
6 more months until I'm 22! XD and!!!! 8 more months until I graduate! ☄️💥
My thoughts today:
To the man who I spent years chasing vs the man who was with me for only a few months.
Years spent on you- yet only he continually appears in my dreams.
Time is nothing compared to connection.
My bestie marie will be going to Japan for a year starting today! I'm going to miss her every odd day (; hahaha probably every second of each day...
We went out to eat today and karaoke afterwards...and this is what I realised.
As I sat and watch you serenade her time after time...a peaceful notion came to mind- that someone else needs you more than I do. That my time...my best friend, will be someone who I can ask for...without feeling guilt or shame. Loving me as I am- knowing me as I am - and resonating with me like we were meant for each other.
A bit over dramatic but that's me!
Enjoy readers 🌷