"The Call To Courage" by Brene Brown in Netflix was a life-changing 1 hour, 16 minutes, and 43 seconds of my life. Her points were just arrows that directly targeted my heart and mind and make made me question, for how long, have I been trying to build an armor to keep myself from getting hurt? I've been so afraid to be vulnerable, to get my defenses down, to expose my weaknesses and called myself "brave". Funny, she just made me feel like the coward of the cowards last night and I woke up at 11am today with the passion and energy and desire to stop escaping the pains and miseries, but rather to face them and stand up to them and know in my heart that I could face them again and again and tha...
I've always wanted to be a light and happy person who seems to be so carefree and full of adventures. Instead, I became a deep and passionate woman who takes every step carefully, thinking about pros and cons. I've became so serious with my journey, that whatever happens has a story and I dig beyond the depth to look for that one tiny reason why something is happening to me or to the world around me.
I've always thought, boys like exciting girls. They don't take women who talk about politics, religion and gender equality on dates and dance with them in bars. I am not even the person someone will approach for small talks because of my resting bitch face, and simply because I hate small talks...
I hate rainy days. They make me miss you more. Why did we make memories during rainy days? They make me hate them more.
I'm sorry for not giving you the love that you deserve. If you just give me another chance.
This is hard for me. But I just want to let you know that all I've been thinking about these days is YOU.
Have you ever felt so tired that you no longer want to face the world, every time you wake up?
I'm just feeling sad now. And that's the most honest thing I've said ever after two weeks of loneliness.
I just hope that we will stop getting uncomfortable at another's success. Let's be happy and celebrate each one's triumphs and be with each other at every downhill journey.
The sun shines through my closed window
Filling my room with light
After a night of darkness and longing and worries
Here comes the rays trying to fill my life
With warmth and comfort
That I've been searching all my life.
Stop being too apologetic
Stop agreeing to things you don't really like
Stop looking at a direction that's not really meant for us
Stop saying those words carefully chosen to make me smile,
And eventually break your heart.
I'm choosing your happiness over mine
You've done more than enough
And I can't be more thankful for everything that you've done.
I love you but maybe, this isn't the right time for us.
I don't need flattery
Or your careless lies.
I just want you to need me,
The way I need you;
To breathe my love,
And to hug me in days like this.
Will you be a darling?
I've lost myself while looking for you. Now that I've lost you, I finally found myself.
I will live my life the way I want to. If I fail, I will own my mistakes and move on. I'll stop living to people's expectations. #IChooseToLeadMyOwnLife